in a full relapse

[ambivalent_thespian]

i don't know what to do. i had everything. i was doing what i loved. i had a job i loved. i was doing well in school. i had someone who cared if i came home, but wouldn't force me there if i wasn't ready.

and now im back home with my family and back to wanting to dive off a bridge just for a change in scenery.

i just fucking love how i'll get yelled at if my grades are bad yet not given a passing glance when they're good.

i'm not a fucking child, and i don't need anyone to control what i do. im a grown ass adult and i can make my own choices.


god i hope that when i do kill myself they don't bother paying for my hospital bills so i have yet another reason to eat lead.