In the end - will you Catch the Bus - Yes or no

[diy-event]

In the end - will you Catch the Bus - Yes or no

 

[TheHolySword]

Yes. Next year.

 

[Namelesa]

I mostly likely still kill myself even if I recover from my mental illnesses now and got what I wanted and done what I wanted in life as the person I would like to live with (my best friend) would probably die earlier than me cus of addictions and other physical health problems. Also I wouldn't see a reason in continuing life when I have accomplished my goals (developing games) and experienced all I want to experience as I can find life to be repetitive and empty so even if I wasn't depressed, I would ctb once I had my fill of life and to avoid future pain.

 

[deepsweetdiver]

Absolutely. It almost feels like the choice is not up to me, but I can't see myself living long enough to die of any natural cause.

 

[Hollowman]

If I don't somehow end up a quadrapalegic then yes.

 

[bananaolympus]

maybe when my closest family members die i would do it without thinking twice, i have really not experienced real grief because no one of my closest family has died, the most impactful loss to me was my dog who died last year that gives you an idea how little i have suffered from others departure

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish to, in fact to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I personally hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than be burdened with this futile, torturous existence that always felt like a terrible tragic mistake in the first place, I personally see human existence as an abomination that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all. If I cease existing then this existence is no longer my problem and I'm incapable of suffering in any way which is why to cease existing is all I hope for, I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well and I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way.

I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer so unnecessarily in this futile existence I never would have chosen where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured just to die in agony from old age, it's so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long, I wish I was never forced into this existence at all. I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me with no acceptance towards preferring non-existence where all is gone and forgotten about over being enslaved in this existence I always saw as just causing nothing but suffering in the first place, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence I never would have chose.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I've slated myself to die in January, so a few weeks from now. I gave life a full year to improve significantly, but nothing. Oh well.

 

[Yume Nikki]

My heart wants to really badly, I'm suffering alot.

 

[Unknown21]

Yeah, I'm thinking about next Thursday as tentative date.

 

[daley]

I will CTB if I become terminally or chronically ill.
Also, if I reach an old age, and I feel that I am just tired on don't want to carry on.

Otherwise, my situation is not bad enough for me to overcome the hastle
and resolve to CTB.

 

[metothemoon]

I wish I could give a confident yes. I want to, I feel like I can't carry the struggle any longer…. However, I feel like a coward who keeps clinging on to the last resort of hope and with the illusion I'll disappoint others..

 

[been__ready]

Yes just waiting on SN to arrive

 

[Broken247]

Most definitely. I will catch a shotgun blast to the head eventually. I don't know why I'm hanging around. There's absolutely no hope for me.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I plan to do it after the holidays.

I just hope I have the strength and courage when the time comes, it's so fucking sad and scary.

 

[tbh2023]

In the end, everyone will die without putting effort.

 

[justwant2sleep]

Yes, possibly CTB tonight. If all goes to plan

 

[LostLily]

Depends on if things get really bad and if my mind stills drag me down

 

[MiraiShisen]

I dont want to, and I probably do not need to because my health will kill me soon, what I am afraid of is what If it wont kill me fast enough and I will be vegetable. Would not it be better off myself then? Thats the struggle I have.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

Knowing me I'd be too much of a coward to even though I want to.

 

[noname37]

Yes, I definitely seeing that being the way I go out. With that being said, I hope I'm brought back here to earth but as a new person. It would be kinda nice if I could see some of my internet friends I used to have again.

 

[rebelnow111]

In the end - will you Catch the Bus - Yes or no

yeah probably

 

[jamesu7777]

Yes

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Currently, I don't know. Despite the fact that it'd be so much better if I was dead already or dead at any time soon I still prefer to live. That's the dilemma when external circumstances that cannot be solved are causing suicidality.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

If I ever get the opportunity to, yes

 

[Tig]

Yes,
End of January.

 

[Kassender]

Part of me wants to say it's a matter of when but i can't confidently say that anymore.

I really don't know.
It feels like this is how it ends for me, but ive been saying that for more than 20 years.

i keep backing out even when it feels imminent, even though i really, really wish i could go through with it.

Either way, i dont think ill get a happy ending

 

[Timelapse]

Yes, the reality is, I don't like what life has to offer.
The joys of life don't last long enough and are often tenuous.
Pain comes around too often and is unbearable at times.
The constant fear of loss.

I've been wanting to CTB since the age of 12. I was ready to live until I was 25 and just end it. Tried at 23 and failed. Tried many times since, but the incompetent and coward that I am... I try to always swallow pills so that I can go in a peaceful OD. Choked on my own vomit for over 24 hours, I ended up in the ICU and got pneumonia. Yet I'm still here. I don't know what I'm doing to CTB, but I know 99.99% I want to.

That pesky 0.01%... is the love I have for a certain thing in this life. Mainly 1 person. But even them is not enough to keep me around.

I'm on borrowed time.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

If depends if peaceful, reliable means can be successfully secured.
Had a glimmer of hope in the UK with the beginnings of the assisted dying bill. Maybe attitudes are changing and one day it can happen.