mango000
wants to sleep forever
- Nov 12, 2024
- 59
hii there, ive been a lurker on this site for a couple of months and after seeing how kind and supportive everyone here is i've decided to introduce myself.
you can call me mango :D for as long as i can remember ive felt like theres something very wrong with me, ive been extremely sad and anxious my entire life. i remember being a little kid on the playground and looking around at all the other kids and feeling shame for simply existing around them all… this hasn't gone away into adulthood, i still feel a lot of shame for existing.
the last few months have been especially bad for me, ive become significantly more anxious than i used to be (even though ive always been very anxious.. ＞ᨓ＜) i constantly have fears about my parents dying, not being able to support myself, and becoming homeless and alone. this especially isnt helped by the cost of living getting worse and worse every single year, from my point of view it just seems impossible to make it and theres no point of even trying anymore. the thought of working 40+ hours a week every week for the rest of my life, and STILL possibly not being able to afford basic necessities makes me extremely anxious and depressed, it has destroyed my mental health. sorry for that rant, but its where the majority of my dislike for being alive comes from lol.
some more info about me, i really love video games and anime!!! my favorite series is the kingdom hearts series, i have some wonderful memories of playing those games for my entire life. im a mostly positive person, its just the weight of the world is getting too much for me to handle. but i hope i can meet and talk to some kind people on here, this place seems like somewhere i can go to talk about things im just not allowed to talk about anywhere else. if youre still reading this i hope you have an amazing day, you deserve it ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶
you can call me mango :D for as long as i can remember ive felt like theres something very wrong with me, ive been extremely sad and anxious my entire life. i remember being a little kid on the playground and looking around at all the other kids and feeling shame for simply existing around them all… this hasn't gone away into adulthood, i still feel a lot of shame for existing.
the last few months have been especially bad for me, ive become significantly more anxious than i used to be (even though ive always been very anxious.. ＞ᨓ＜) i constantly have fears about my parents dying, not being able to support myself, and becoming homeless and alone. this especially isnt helped by the cost of living getting worse and worse every single year, from my point of view it just seems impossible to make it and theres no point of even trying anymore. the thought of working 40+ hours a week every week for the rest of my life, and STILL possibly not being able to afford basic necessities makes me extremely anxious and depressed, it has destroyed my mental health. sorry for that rant, but its where the majority of my dislike for being alive comes from lol.
some more info about me, i really love video games and anime!!! my favorite series is the kingdom hearts series, i have some wonderful memories of playing those games for my entire life. im a mostly positive person, its just the weight of the world is getting too much for me to handle. but i hope i can meet and talk to some kind people on here, this place seems like somewhere i can go to talk about things im just not allowed to talk about anywhere else. if youre still reading this i hope you have an amazing day, you deserve it ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶
we're here for you. hoping this safe space can leave you feeling even a tiny bit better. 
