
Lra888
Enlightened
- Sep 30, 2018
- 1,140
Sometimes I fantasize that I meet fellow depressed/suicidal people in real life (could use anonymous or fake names) and we meet up for fun self destructive binges to make the process of exiting this world as pleasant as possible. I feel exhausted hiding everything from people. Like if anyone of my "friends" came into my apartment right now they would be very alarmed & call the police to take me away to a psych ward (drugs nooses piles of trash other weird unmentionable shit etc)
Would be cool to meet up with people and just be 100% honest with no bullshit anxiety about saying the wrong thing. A get together of suicidal/mentally ill people. I hope for this.
I live in a city (hint: 9/11) and perhaps I can arrange this but don't want to give away my suicide plans (also I dont want to encourage others - if people want help getting well I think talking to people who understand that suffering can get them on a path to recovery). I went to a group therapy christmas party and it was actually nice to be around fellow people that i had no reason to hide from (a girl with anxiety couldn't eat in front of anyone and it was fine - everyone there understood that. Cool to be in an environment like that. Confidentiality rules there and a therapist is onhand so obv couldnt bring this up.
*I'm very drunk & on klonopin and this is what im thinking about. Maybe sounds crazy.
Would be cool to meet up with people and just be 100% honest with no bullshit anxiety about saying the wrong thing. A get together of suicidal/mentally ill people. I hope for this.
I live in a city (hint: 9/11) and perhaps I can arrange this but don't want to give away my suicide plans (also I dont want to encourage others - if people want help getting well I think talking to people who understand that suffering can get them on a path to recovery). I went to a group therapy christmas party and it was actually nice to be around fellow people that i had no reason to hide from (a girl with anxiety couldn't eat in front of anyone and it was fine - everyone there understood that. Cool to be in an environment like that. Confidentiality rules there and a therapist is onhand so obv couldnt bring this up.
*I'm very drunk & on klonopin and this is what im thinking about. Maybe sounds crazy.