irregularheartbeat
Memento Mori
- Aug 25, 2019
- 65
I find my schizophrenia contributes to myself being suicidal alot. I feel hopeless knowing Ill never be without this disorder, Im 21 and have never been without symptoms.
Lately treatment hasnt been helping much. I think I might be medication resisitant. Since 14 years old Ive tried almost every medication and combo. None seemed to helo, and Im extremely prone to side effects. Ive been in and out of hospitals, dbt, cbt, groups, just about everything.
I dont have hope for ever being better. I cant see a functional future for myself, I just really dont know what to do anymore. I live in GA in the us, there arent many options near me I havent tried.
Im so fucking hopeless.
Lately treatment hasnt been helping much. I think I might be medication resisitant. Since 14 years old Ive tried almost every medication and combo. None seemed to helo, and Im extremely prone to side effects. Ive been in and out of hospitals, dbt, cbt, groups, just about everything.
I dont have hope for ever being better. I cant see a functional future for myself, I just really dont know what to do anymore. I live in GA in the us, there arent many options near me I havent tried.
Im so fucking hopeless.