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Xyzabc1813
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- Jan 12, 2025
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I am single aged 30 and from a family where everyone has certain expectations from every other person. I think I have acted well enough for so long for others around me making them believe I am happy with whatever I am doing. On the contrary, I was never happy because of every event that unfolded for me.
I just want to end my life and feel nothing. But, I do not want my family to know about suicide. I want my death to be from either a serious disease or heart attack etc. Though I know I will feel nothing after life but I do not want to let down my parents by making it look like suicide. For instance, after some research I found that consuming more than 800mg of caffeine every day is very dangerous as permissable limit is 400mg of caffeine. Hence, I am consuming 800mg of caffeine daily through my coffee drinks. It's been almost a month. I don't see any affect on my body other than small affects.
So, I want to know if someone has better ideas for death which can take some time but the cause of death shouldn't be suicide. Thanks for reading my story.
I just want to end my life and feel nothing. But, I do not want my family to know about suicide. I want my death to be from either a serious disease or heart attack etc. Though I know I will feel nothing after life but I do not want to let down my parents by making it look like suicide. For instance, after some research I found that consuming more than 800mg of caffeine every day is very dangerous as permissable limit is 400mg of caffeine. Hence, I am consuming 800mg of caffeine daily through my coffee drinks. It's been almost a month. I don't see any affect on my body other than small affects.
So, I want to know if someone has better ideas for death which can take some time but the cause of death shouldn't be suicide. Thanks for reading my story.