Help Is there any way out of this Alive?

[IsThisTheEnd?]

Probably a rather stupid question considering the nature of the forum.
I've posted quite a few threads in my short time here don't worry about the more eccentric ones but mainly been trying to figure out if there is anyway out of this alive and I don't think there is?
I could of-course carry on but it's going to be a miserable existence always poor, shunned, lonely and alone etc

So some of you are obviously here because you feel the same and this is not much help remember I'm older nearly 40.

Is there anyway out alive?

 

[Cherrypea]

IDK, I'm 50 and feel I've reached the end. My counsellor says there is though.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I've posted quite a few threads in my short time here don't worry about the more eccentric ones but mainly been trying to figure out if there is anyway out of this alive and I don't think there is?

In order to answer this question, we'll need to kind of analyze what exactly is the "this" you want out of, that makes you feel this way. I see you specified some general things that cause you pain, but we'll need to look deeper into the issue. I don't have guarantees about there being a way out, but there very well might be.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

it's humiliating living like this, it's not viewed as normal and never fitting in anywhere.
The only thing is I feel sorry to leave my Mum.

 

[Cherrypea]

it's humiliating living like this, it's not viewed as normal and never fitting in anywhere.
The only thing is I feel sorry to leave my Mum.

How do you mean sweetie?

 

[GrumpyFrog]

it's humiliating living like this, it's not viewed as normal and never fitting in anywhere.

It seems you feel ashamed and upset/worried about the way others perceive you. Am I right?

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

being alone like this is considered weird and is humiliating
I've gone through a tonne of jobs and they never work out.

I guess it is the end I just feel sorry for my Mum that's it.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

It seems like you care about your mum a lot and you two have a positive relationship. That is admirable.
Can you talk to your mom about how you feel about life? Not necessarily telling her you don't want to be alive and making her worried, just talking about life, sharing your feelings?

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I said to her lately I don't think this is going to end well, but she's a little old lady, if I could just get her married off and create some distance I wouldn't feel so bad.

 

[Cherrypea]

It's your low self worth /esteem and depression that causes these feelings and also causes the aloneness in the first place. I'm sorry, it sucks x
But not weirdness, you don't sound weird at all.

 

[muffin222]

I think there's always a solution or a way to develop new coping strategies if one is determined and committed to recovery, but life may not ever be "normal" like it is for non-suicidal people