AntHydra
I wish you serenity.
- Sep 26, 2021
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I wish I could just talk to my best friend (or, the person who was my best friend for a long time... I don't think I have the right to call her that anymore).
I mean, about my SI, but also about everything else. I want to tell her about the banal and small things I did today, some of the things I found and might think she would enjoy. But I can't text her first in any situation, it's terrifying and I never want to bother her again. I don't think she wants to talk to me, not about herself or her current life or anything, and I don't think she wants to hear anything from me. The very few times we have texted in recent times, she always replied very late and with flat or almost nonsensical replies. I wish I could confront her about this, too, but it's impossible, it could only cause more damage.
But she is the person I want to know everything about me. I just wish I could open everything to her again, and I wish she wanted that again.
It's a bad habit, but I keep checking if she is online on discord, and if she is, I feel terrible.
Does anyone else have a situation like that? Someone they really, really want to talk to, open up to (again), but know they can't?
I mean, about my SI, but also about everything else. I want to tell her about the banal and small things I did today, some of the things I found and might think she would enjoy. But I can't text her first in any situation, it's terrifying and I never want to bother her again. I don't think she wants to talk to me, not about herself or her current life or anything, and I don't think she wants to hear anything from me. The very few times we have texted in recent times, she always replied very late and with flat or almost nonsensical replies. I wish I could confront her about this, too, but it's impossible, it could only cause more damage.
But she is the person I want to know everything about me. I just wish I could open everything to her again, and I wish she wanted that again.
It's a bad habit, but I keep checking if she is online on discord, and if she is, I feel terrible.
Does anyone else have a situation like that? Someone they really, really want to talk to, open up to (again), but know they can't?