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aikoelis6

aikoelis6

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Dec 9, 2019
26
I can't connect with anyone. I've just forced myself into making up my mind that everything is pointless and I can't escape it. Been leaving the house less than once a week for over a year now, skipped out on Christmas, can't bring myself to call or text anyone, and I've been dealing with serious health issues by myself, hiding it from everyone around me.

I really don't understand why I'm still here and why I 'have' to keep trying. Everything is in motion around me, and keeping away from me like a disease. No wonder I've been suicidal since I was a child. Why do my attempts keep failing?. I hate being alone but there's not an ounce of motivation left in my soul to want to change. I used to feel guilty for feeling this way but now even that feeling is gone. There really isn't much left of me and I don't think I'll ever be able to make a genuine connection with someone ever again.
 
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LukaParrot

LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
158
Hi... i dont know what you're passing through life but I think you're still a young person.

I saw a family case with similar aspects and problems with their children (teenage/early adult). They take him to psychologist and later to a psychiatrist. Started to take some antidepressants and calmant drugs. It helps but not always and not without your effort.

If your depression has really deep roots, reasons, it's may be bad as my case.

But if you feel this way and it's just doesnt seens to have a strong reason, you have a great chance to have a nice recovery. As bad as it sounds, feel a little of sun in your face, it's strange but helps, do some walkings, if possible, try to apply at a gym, exercises in the begining will be rough but you will feel better. Few steps at time.
 
aikoelis6

aikoelis6

Member
Dec 9, 2019
26
Hi... i dont know what you're passing through life but I think you're still a young person.

I saw a family case with similar aspects and problems with their children (teenage/early adult). They take him to psychologist and later to a psychiatrist. Started to take some antidepressants and calmant drugs. It helps but not always and not without your effort.

If your depression has really deep roots, reasons, it's may be bad as my case.

But if you feel this way and it's just doesnt seens to have a strong reason, you have a great chance to have a nice recovery. As bad as it sounds, feel a little of sun in your face, it's strange but helps, do some walkings, if possible, try to apply at a gym, exercises in the begining will be rough but you will feel better. Few steps at time.
While I appreciate the sentiment I'm 26 and I know my issues are more deeply rooted than needing to take a walk.
 
LukaParrot

LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
158
When I was at your age, I was very depressed but decided to be a workaholic. When I didnt notice, my depression was gone.

I remember a friend's advice, "An empty mind is the devil's workshop". Try to find something that keeps you busy, can be a job that you even dont need but having a daily routine can help a lot.

Wish you better days, when I had a really bad day, I was just going to the bed and sleep early, sleep is like a break dont you agree? When you can for an instance, occupy you mind by eating something, by watching a movie, for me it's a brief moment of peace that's worth.
 
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kitkat9234

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Nov 27, 2024
110
I feel the exact same way. It's awful.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,617
Very relatable, not being able to connect to anyone is one of the main reasons I need to check out.
 
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aikoelis6

aikoelis6

Member
Dec 9, 2019
26
When I was at your age, I was very depressed but decided to be a workaholic. When I didnt notice, my depression was gone.

I remember a friend's advice, "An empty mind is the devil's workshop". Try to find something that keeps you busy, can be a job that you even dont need but having a daily routine can help a lot.

Wish you better days, when I had a really bad day, I was just going to the bed and sleep early, sleep is like a break dont you agree? When you can for an instance, occupy you mind by eating something, by watching a movie, for me it's a brief moment of peace that's worth.
I do all those things. I have a job and hobbies. Momentary and temporary peace isn't what I'm after. It's constantly having to distract yourself that makes nothing worth it, I'm not looking to be distracted. I've already done so my whole life and I'm not trying to recover anymore. Sure I'll occupy my mind with something, but it doesn't erase any of the feelings that continue to grow and make me suicidal. No person or object will.
 
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