It arrived, it actually did.

[GoSan1]

My SN has actually arrived, it wasn't from that DMC thing that everyone seems to know about. It was a shady site allowing normal Paypal and even asked me if I wanted to tip them, and I even did tip them 1€ out of simply thinking "meh". The site had mixed reviews more leaning toward bad ones, but they did it. In Germany, that is like finding an diamond, because it is only sold to institutions and companies, and it was right on Google page 1 too. I still can't believe it, but everything has gone perfectly since I started to go for the CTB.


**Image removed due to it being protected, sorry!**

But my fear is growing as well, not of death but of my family. I am so scared of how they will take my death in, but I have only gotten so far because of them. I'm living for them, not for myself, and I never will be able to in such a world. I'm trying not to let that stop me, letting the weeks pass I'll see what happens, CTB date is set to 24th November also called "Sunday of the dead" in Germany. Been praying daily for something to happen if I should continue, just for all the things going in favor of me leaving xD

Either way, if anyone has some knowledge or experience of SN from B (some polish company), please let me know. Test stripes are on the way for the normal test, blood test would be done after that one since I don't wanna waste blood haha! I also gotta look for some medicines to support it...

 

[rozeske]

Please remove the picture. There is a reason sources are protected.

 

[Ireallysuck999]

I have the same directly from Poland is the 500g one?

 

[GoSan1]

Please remove the picture. There is a reason sources are protected.

Sorry about that, image was removed.

I have the same directly from Poland is the 500g one?

Yes it is!

 

[asthedayends00]

I understand how you feel about family. I've been living for others a long time but the end has come. It's bitter-sweet.

 

[GoSan1]

I understand how you feel about family. I've been living for others a long time but the end has come. It's bitter-sweet.

Its so sad too, i was so happy for it to end, its like all of it was destined to be, but that only thought is able to take away so much from that happiness and change it into doubt and nervousness...

 

[asthedayends00]

Its so sad too, i was so happy for it to end, its like all of it was destined to be, but that only thought is able to take away so much from that happiness and change it into doubt and nervousness...

It's gotten to a point for me where i truly feel like it's the right thing for everyone inevitably.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, personally I'd feel relief if I had such an option.

 

[GoSan1]

I wish you the best, personally I'd feel relief if I had such an option.

may i ask what is holding you back? That sounds harsh but i mean what makes you stay alive?

 

[GoSan1]

pls could you let me know if the package was discreet? and is the purity 95%+? how long did it take to arrive?

It was, no one could see what even the package was about. Purity is supposed to be 97-98%, but I will do the stripe test and let you know. Because it came from Poland, it took around 5 days, but that's really good.

 

[LifeQuitter]

I've seen a goodbye thread that mentioned the same source.

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

I hope you test it

 

[GoSan1]

I hope you test it

As mentioned in the post, waiting for the test stripes to arrive. Will then test with distilled water and post results...

 

[Csmith8827]

Good Luck Man. I had SN in the past and Like I couldn't do it. Corona Virus broke out and I had to toss it to get on the plane back to where my family lives. Otherwise I may have done it. I Hope it works out well for you. I'm looking for a cleaner and swifter way out but no one is responding to the thread about propofol so I don't know what to do at the moment...

 

[GoSan1]

Good Luck Man. I had SN in the past and Like I couldn't do it. Corona Virus broke out and I had to toss it to get on the plane back to where my family lives. Otherwise I may have done it. I Hope it works out well for you. I'm looking for a cleaner and swifter way out but no one is responding to the thread about propofol so I don't know what to do at the moment...

Hey, thank man, im having an internal fight right now between living for my parents or dying for myself... It sucks, and to make it worse, I just watched terrefier 3 and it completely broke me, just sick... Either way, did you check out the PPH Book? It has it mentioned and how to efficiently use it... Propofol would probably make a peaceful death through sleep, but I think it would be hard to pull off... Only found this on the internet about it: https://www.scielo.sa.cr/scielo.php?pid=S1409-00152021000100054&script=sci_abstract&tlng=en

 

[regular john]

It was, no one could see what even the package was about. Purity is supposed to be 97-98%, but I will do the stripe test and let you know. Because it came from Poland, it took around 5 days, but that's really good.

i am polish but i live abroad, when i go for holidays i will buy again. the packet i bought couple years ago is expired already i think.