Venting It hurts so bad

[willitpass]

I just want reprieve from this hell so badly. It seems like when I do cry out for help nothing anyone offers is enough. I'm either ignored or told meaningless platitudes or offered some bullshit coping skill like dunking my fucking head in a bucket of water. I tried to tell my therapist yesterday that I wasn't doing well and my skills aren't working and I needed help… She told me she was leaving for the day and left. I don't expect someone to stay over and have a full session but even some recognition that she heard me would have been nice. Most of the time I mask how I'm feeling. It's easier than trying this struggle of asking for help and then not getting what I need. That's even more painful than sitting with it by myself.

My pain is agonizing and there's truly nothing that help can offer me. I just want to die so fucking badly. Please God I can't do this.

 

[citrusrope]

I feel you... it feels like nothing at this point can actually help me (not like anyone has tried to meaningfully help me anyways, which, cool.)

 

[CatLvr]

I was just thinking about you this afternoon. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain.

 

[willitpass]

I've almost made it to the point where they trust me to do more individual things like walks and outings by myself. All I can think about it finding a way to get a ride to a gas station during one of them and CTB.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I've almost made it to the point where they trust me to do more individual things like walks and outings by myself. All I can think about it finding a way to get a ride to a gas station during one of them and CTB.

Whats your method?

 

[divinemistress36]

DId you ever get ketamine infusions?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I was just thinking about you this morning too. i'm so sorry it's continued to be such hell on you. as @divinemistress36 asked, have you been able to secure a consultation etc? we're here for you

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Whats your method?

Bruh you just picked the worst possible time and place to ask someone that question

 

[willitpass]

DId you ever get ketamine infusions?

I was just thinking about you this morning too. i'm so sorry it's continued to be such hell on you. as @divinemistress36 asked, have you been able to secure a consultation etc? we're here for you

I start them next week.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Bruh you just picked the worst possible time and place to ask someone that question

How do you figure that?

 

[Lady Laudanum]

How do you figure that?

Context. It's intrusive to randomly go on someone's venting thread and ask what their method is, without getting to know them or looking through their posts first to see if that's an appropriate question.

I ain't white knighting. Most people would not be happy about someone with a brand new account suddenly asking them what their method is, out of context.

 

[CatLvr]

I hope the ketamine helps you.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Context. It's intrusive to randomly go on someone's venting thread and ask what their method is, without getting to know them or looking through their posts first to see if that's an appropriate question.

I ain't white knighting. Most people would not be happy about someone with a brand new account suddenly asking them what their method is, out of context.

Well I am a new account who's on the verge of ctb, so forgive me my impoliteness and not understanding the tribal knowledge held here. I'll try to be more sensitive to other peoples' unstated, implicit rulebooks here while I'm drowning to death. It's not like it's literally a suicide forum posted in literally the suicide discussion board, or that method questions appear in many other places here. Are you a mod? If so, I'll take that to heart and behave properly. If not, kindly stow the moral superiority.

Next time, contextually, it would be less rude to private message such aggressive and accusatory comments, just FYI. Even if the person is in the wrong. It's equally rude to call them out in such a manner, in virtual public, being offended on someone elses' behalf no less, and for a question that could simply be ignored if felt to be uncomfortable--while also not knowing what they're going through...but telling them that they should know everyone elses' backstory. Do you know mine? Or was it a one-sided thing? Obviously it was not my intention to cause discomfort. I'd seen the question asked elsewhere many times.

Again. It might be considered intrusive to call people out in public instead of DMing, especially new accounts who aren't privy to the social standards of the forum yet. And causing drama on a venting forum that you care a great deal about, yourself, might also be contextually inappropriate.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

we're here with you when you start the ket @willitpass

do you know how soon?

 

[willitpass]

we're here with you when you start the ket @willitpass

do you know how soon?

I do but for the sake of privacy I won't say a specific date. It's very soon, though.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I do but for the sake of privacy I won't say a specific date. It's very soon, though.

valid as fuck. glad to hear. when I went into my first session, shit was really bad. they assured me it would give me relief, im certainly hoping the same for you. if anyone deserves it, it's you. sending hugs.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Context. It's intrusive to randomly go on someone's venting thread and ask what their method is, without getting to know them or looking through their posts first to see if that's an appropriate question.

I ain't white knighting. Most people would not be happy about someone with a brand new account suddenly asking them what their method is, out of context.

Sure. Maybe you could help me out, then. For future reference, what are "appropriate questions" and "inappropriate questions" on this here suicide forum where people help each other die?

Do you have a list I could reference? Because, while I now understand your concern retroactively, I did what you recommended; and, I see people sending her videos of people being burned alive. Seems pretty contextually inappropriate and intrusive to me. So that kind of thing is cool, but my question was out of line, right? So I'm just trying to understand exactly what is appropriate and inappropriate on this here board.

Fill me in, please.