It is so painful to be awake

[StillWaiting]

I have to wake up everyday go school and do school work.
I don't enjoy any of it. I hate what I am studying. I feel so trapped in my life.
Knowing that the moment I graduate from school, work life is going to be another hell awaiting for me. It makes me feel the need to ctb.
Going to school and seeing how others are so much greater than me in many ways. While I am just here trying my best to get myself together. I am so tired. I just want to rest.

 

[cap]

I feel the same. Every single day feels like hell and I just want to sleep and rest. I don't think I will ever graduate though, I'll ctb before that.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I get that, too. Life is exhausting. I'm long out of school now but getting up to go to work every day is soul-destroying (if I had a soul to begin with, otherwise it's just... destroying?)

 

[oldgray]

honestly i don't even understand how normal people can live like this, where do they find the time and the energy to do stuff outside work, is there a cheat i don't know about?

 

[Lra888]

honestly i don't even understand how normal people can live like this, where do they find the time and the energy to do stuff outside work, is there a cheat i don't know about?

It seems impossible yet also completely unappealing to deal with all that.

 

[oldgray]

It seems impossible yet also completely unappealing to deal with all that.

i don't know, maybe having people you care about to do stuff with and enjoying them give you that energy boost.
not the time though.

 

[AndyCurious]

I feel tired all the time, in pain, lack of energy.. I may have felt better if I got out more, but my anxiety stops me..

 

[your pathologist]

When I'm out of school all I want is to be in school
When I'm in school all I want it to be out
What's the point

 

[AndyCurious]

When I'm out of school all I want is to be in school
When I'm in school all I want it to be out
What's the point

No point I guess.. Hugs <3

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

Yeah...the 60-80 years ahead if I live till old age is unfathomable to me, with more school, work, and struggle. I'm in school right now, and I also hate it. I wouldn't mind doing easy assignments in class but the homework and exam studying is really annoying. The times of taking a shower and then settling in to bed at night is wonderful...I wish it could last forever....

 

[AndyCurious]

Yeah...the 60-80 years ahead if I live till old age is unfathomable to me, with more school, work, and struggle. I'm in school right now, and I also hate it. I wouldn't mind doing easy assignments in class but the homework and exam studying is really annoying. The times of taking a shower and then settling in to bed at night is wonderful...I wish it could last forever....

I wish the same <3

 

[Tragoedia Vitae]

I get this so much. After waking up, there's always the unshakable, intense feeling of dread. A cloudless blue sky is a beautiful sight to behold, but at the same time I absolutely hate sunshine. I haven't been able to find a pair of curtains black enough to drown out every single ray of sunshine. I would like nothing better than to lie on my bed all day wrapped up in my blankets, sleeping and dreaming....

I always feel cold inside. To be entombed in warm darkness, day after day.....it would be wonderful.

I will have to look for drugs or medications which would allow me to sleep for days on end without waking up.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Yes, sentience is quite painful.