Its almost the end...

[plzoffme]

On August 7th, I will be ending years of pain via a heahshot with a 9mm. I have bipolar type 2 and it makes life so unbearable to live in anymore. This is not a decision i have come up with overnight, but one that has been years in the making. I was lucky to find what i enjoyed in life but it ended in flames and there is nothing else that i want. I feel somewhat more aware then most humans in understanding my own suffering but my bain is to far gone now. I have taken many meds which by the way do nothing but make you feel like a zombie with no energy or motivation. I am tired of working a job i hate, buying things that will never make me happy to try and fix what is really going on inside (Bipolar 2). So, i guess the only way to freedom is death. I do believe in the "afterlife" as consiouesness is all there ever was and will ever be. I want to be free from this body and be able to just BE without having to worry about anything. If i did not have bipolar, maybe life would not be so bad but it is what it is. Well, thanks for reading.

 

[Linda]

I understand. I hope you can find some peace.

 

[eattwinkiesseejesus]

Unbearable indeed I am so sorry you are struggling. Also bipolar, my inbox is open to you if you ever need to reach out

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm sorry for the suffering you've had to endure, I also believe in an afterlife and whatever you choose I hope you find the peace you're searching for. Feel free to chat to me if you need

 

[OneLove]

August 7th is my birthday. I will be 43…I considered making this my death day as well. I doubt that will happen though. Going by firearm is my dream. But the process to get one is so damn long in the northeast!
And I do hope you find peace

 

[emptymiku]

this might sound extremely weird and i'm sorry for saying this out of the blue, but you sound a lot like my dad right now & its kinda scaring me a bit.. can you maybe tell me like how many kids you have or something so i dont have to worry about it

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
wish you the best
hope you find the relief you search for