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nihilism44

nihilism44

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May 2, 2021
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Today i'm going to exercise (I hope). it's gonna be difficult since it's been so long but I remember how good it used to make me feel. I may even start reading up on spirituality again and reaching out to the friends that I cut off. I'm still extremely suicidal but I'm going to try to make steps towards fixing myself over this next month. I know this won't fix my mental illness, but it may make it more bearable. If I'm not feeling better after a month or two then I may decide to ctb. Getting out of bed and finding the motivation to do this is gonna be rough but I have to at least try before I make any irrational decisions... I really don't want to end up like my mom... wish me luck.
 
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I'm scared

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Hey Good luck..I also used to run everyday .Now I sit in bed .Did you get some exercise?
 
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Last chance

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Today i'm going to exercise (I hope). it's gonna be difficult since it's been so long but I remember how good it used to make me feel. I may even start reading up on spirituality again and reaching out to the friends that I cut off. I'm still extremely suicidal but I'm going to try to make steps towards fixing myself over this next month. I know this won't fix my mental illness, but it may make it more bearable. If I'm not feeling better after a month or two then I may decide to ctb. Getting out of bed and finding the motivation to do this is gonna be rough but I have to at least try before I make any irrational decisions... I really don't want to end up like my mom... wish me luck.
Good luck !

Ive started doing the same thing,I bought a kettlebell and have been trying to use it every day. I don't feel any better yet and it feels kinda pointless but Im waiting to get paid before I buy my exit bag set up so I may as well try in the mean time.

Did you manage to get anything done today?
 
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landojustwannactb

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Apr 29, 2021
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Fight the good fight man, best wishes.
 
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nihilism44

nihilism44

trying my best
May 2, 2021
79
Hey Good luck..I also used to run everyday .Now I sit in bed .Did you get some exercise?
I did! It was only about 20 minutes but it was more than I've done in a long time. You should go for a run if you find the motivation anytime soon. It made me feel a lot better.
Good luck !

Ive started doing the same thing,I bought a kettlebell and have been trying to use it every day. I don't feel any better yet and it feels kinda pointless but Im waiting to get paid before I buy my exit bag set up so I may as well try in the mean time.

Did you manage to get anything done today?
I exercised for a bit.. it actually made me feel a bit better so I'm feeling optimistic. I'm proud of you for trying even if it doesn't make you feel much better, I know how hard it can be. Good luck to you xx.
 
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I'm really proud of you! Keep up the good work!
I should start exercising too because one of the things I hate the most about myself is my overweight.

I've found the energy to study and work but as regards working out...damn, it's so hard!
 
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