I’ve failed at everything I’ve ever worked for

[dontaskmewhatithink]

Every single thing I've ever strived for failed. Sometimes it was on me, but mostly it was out of my control. I feel cursed, like something is inherently wrong with me. Something that makes me fail over and over and over again. I'm tired. I don't want to strive anymore, I don't want to try anymore. I'm very close to ending it. The only thing holding me back is my partner and family. I don't want to hurt them. But I also don't know if I can keep going like this. I don't think I can, and I don't want to.

How do I get over not wanting to hurt others? Me and my partner share a bank account, so I can't even order SN without him noticing because it's got so expensive. Any advice will be appreciated.

 

[leot83]

I smell of failure and it hurts.
The more choices I make the worse outcomes I get. I am also insecure which does not help make the right decisions.

 

[ShortBaldAndUgly]

Sometimes in life we have to make the decision that is best for ourselves, regardless of the consequences. I had to leave my controlling & abusive family and cut off all contact in my early 20s, which was very difficult, but was ultimately the right decision, though a decision I still think about today. When you're stuck in a bad situation like that there is a lot of guilt, but if you're set on your course of action there is no other alternative than to be brave and go through with it and get the relief you seek.

 

[flutebloom]

I'm a disgrace. I feel the same exact way.

 

[wham311]

Yea I've literally failed at everything I've ever tried except getting my degree, and i did nothing with it.

I fucked my body up so bad I can't even use sn. That's a gut punch

 

[dontaskmewhatithink]

Yea I've literally failed at everything I've ever tried except getting my degree, and i did nothing with it.

I fucked my body up so bad I can't even use sn. That's a gut punch

Same. I got my degree, which doesn't even feel like an achievement because it was so easy. And I've failed to turn it into a successful career. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up.