Save_Me_Mind
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- Sep 15, 2023
- 54
I'm a pre-med student. Becoming a doctor is a dream of mine that I've had for a long time now. I simply just have a huge passion for medicine in science and even this website has boosted that passion for it.
Unfortunately I never had the best grades in high school because of external factors and Covid. I got into a mid university and my grades aren't a 4.0 and I'm 2 semesters in. My GPA is 3.0 because of some unforeseen events happening during the finals week...
It may sound like I'm just an idiot who has passion and that's it... but I really am just unlucky with my life and how everything else has been.... I don't know what to do at all. I want to work in a hospital during the breaks between semesters but I don't even know how to, when I applied for the simplest jobs there, they just said they found "more qualified" people to work there. I don't know how to find jobs, I don't know what extracurriculars I need to be doing to get into med school. I just lack so much basic life skills I'm lost. Just where.... where and what do I need to go and do... everyone else seems to know but I don't and because of that I'm miles behind and therefore there's no reason for med-schools to even want someone as shitty as me. This entire story is not the only reason why I want to CTB, there are many...
Even if someone can be "loved" by others, if they aren't the most valued person to at least one of them, it means nothing...
If anyone has a favorite suicide method, please give me ideas.
Unfortunately I never had the best grades in high school because of external factors and Covid. I got into a mid university and my grades aren't a 4.0 and I'm 2 semesters in. My GPA is 3.0 because of some unforeseen events happening during the finals week...
It may sound like I'm just an idiot who has passion and that's it... but I really am just unlucky with my life and how everything else has been.... I don't know what to do at all. I want to work in a hospital during the breaks between semesters but I don't even know how to, when I applied for the simplest jobs there, they just said they found "more qualified" people to work there. I don't know how to find jobs, I don't know what extracurriculars I need to be doing to get into med school. I just lack so much basic life skills I'm lost. Just where.... where and what do I need to go and do... everyone else seems to know but I don't and because of that I'm miles behind and therefore there's no reason for med-schools to even want someone as shitty as me. This entire story is not the only reason why I want to CTB, there are many...
Even if someone can be "loved" by others, if they aren't the most valued person to at least one of them, it means nothing...
If anyone has a favorite suicide method, please give me ideas.
