
Iwant2sleepforever
Experienced
- Sep 8, 2018
- 227
I can barely even admit it on this forum, but I am jealous and insecure. It's crazy how someone who treated this girl I got feelings for like shit, and ended up cheating on her, actually got a chance with her. I have no chance with dating, even when a girl approached me I fucked it up cause I'm retarded, it probably doesnt even matter cause it probably wouldnt of worked anyway, but honestly all that is neither here nor there. I am jealous of people who are in good relationships. I am just disgusted with myself. I'm just an insecure mess and I really feel like I need to try to CTB again. I feel like im insecure about everything. It hurts to look in the mirror. I think I lost all of the motivation I had tonight.