Job Search is pushing me over the edge

[nothingbutafailure]

I've been unemployed for about 4 months and haven't found anything good.

At this rate my car will probably get repossessed, which will be a nightmare and cripple me economically.

Submitted 50 applications today and the more I do it the more demoralized I feel and the more intrusive suicidal thoughts I have.

I fucking hate being treated like an autistic savant and doll in real life and being a totally unqualified loser professionally. The dissonance is killing me.

Wish I had a real gun and not just pills.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

BIG RELATE. I've been looking since April and it's absolutely killing me inside. I've sent HUNDREDS. Scams are rampant as are jobs that require you to put out money to obtain a license for a fully commissioned job. SIGH.

Sending you hugs OP, here if you wanna talk.

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

I've been unemployed for about 4 months and haven't found anything good.

At this rate my car will probably get repossessed, which will be a nightmare and cripple me economically.

Submitted 50 applications today and the more I do it the more demoralized I feel and the more intrusive suicidal thoughts I have.

I fucking hate being treated like an autistic savant and doll in real life and being a totally unqualified loser professionally. The dissonance is killing me.

Wish I had a real gun and not just pills.

I know how it is, trust me. It sucks big time.

 

[theboy]

Ah!
The economy is tough but maybe you can offer your services according to your skills.
editing, videos, selling stuff...?

 

[bluejorvik]

Not exactly the same situation - I have enjoyed my career/job for years but these past few months it's become unbearable. Seems like when you most want to get something you just get no luck. I've applied for other jobs and the rejections are totally fucking me. People say work isn't something to base your life around but it really hurts when it's all going wrong. I feel you and hope you will find something soon

 

[nothingbutafailure]

What makes it so much worse is that while I was working my old job, I had multiple job offers that paid much better than what I was getting. However, I stayed because I appreciated the idea that they were investing in me and training me, and I was giving myself time to grow and heal from my trauma. Now I'm arguably even more skilled than ever but can't even land an interview, at the same places, when I have more experience to show. Everyone is telling me the market sucks right now but all I'm feeling is that I suck and going to end myself by the end of January.

 

[Rev346]

Job searching sucks. You're expected to kiss ass and know everything about the company you're applying with and they don't even have to acknowledge whether they receive your application, let alone contact you. Best bet is to ask friends if they know of anything or go through any associations you may be a part of. Good luck!

 

[yowai]

I was looking for something that would work with my difficulties (autism lol) and not require experience since I've only worked once as a cashier + didn't get specific education after finishing high school, and it makes me feel like such a loser lol, like if there isn't anything that I'd be capable of doing for money and be functioning in society then how am I supposed to live this life

 

[nothingbutafailure]

Yay, more bad news. I did not win my unemployment appeal, which means no fucking money.

 

[nogods4me]

The planet is going to explode soon...finally (fingers crossed!).