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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
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with every reoccurring traumatic experience I keep rethinking when the room gets too quiet,

whenever I receive another job rejection email

the more I glance at those piling overdue bills

when I take a quick look at the pathetic person on the other side of my mirror

the more my stomach growls as the day go by

the noticeably emptiness of that refrigerator/freezer

whenever the "should've/would've/could've of's" of my past/present/and future life constantly taunt my forever weak mind

every night I hold only myself in comfort to ease the pain of loneliness, failure, and emptiness

as I stare dumbfounded at the wall hour after hour reflecting on the life I have no energy to fix

I itch closer and closer to the desire of catching that fucking bus.
 
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