i finally got a job. after a year of not being able get hired. been there for 2 weeks now & its....ok. why do i feel like everyone there hates me? i hate my mind. i hate the way i am. i feel like no one likes me. not just at work but in general. every time i have to ask for help or talk my anxiety is sky high. every time i feel like im annoying someone i shut down get quiet & do weird things. like keep fixing my sleeves or balling my toes up. or keep fumbling in my pocket. its weird & annoying. i hope no one notices it. i dont feel normal. it sounds corny writing this but i really dont. i feel like im being watched 24/7 but another part of me is saying "who wants to watch you??? ur not that important". why am i like this? what is wrong with me
one day.. itll be all over. ill finally ctb. because i dont to live this way anymore
one day.. itll be all over. ill finally ctb. because i dont to live this way anymore
