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MrSelfHarm

New Member
Apr 24, 2020
2
I'm 18 and I've never experienced proper love
I've had girlfriends before but it just never felt like I was "falling for someone". I dont know why I'm posting this but I just want to let it out.
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
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Excuse me if I sound patronizing, that is not at all my intention.

If you had said you were 81 I would have felt sorry for you. But you're 18, so there's still time.

I wish you good luck in your search for love!
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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It will happen, most likely. At 18 I'd barely scratced the surface and certainly never experienced romantic love. Lust and infatuation but not love. Have patience and God luck.
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
I'm 19 and I've never experienced "true" love, if it even exists for me. Main reason why I'm suicidal so yeah.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,184
Aren't most of us? Love and /or being in love is magical, a high, a feeling like nothing else.

Unless it's one sided ofcourse, then it sucks camelballs
 
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Gregorius

Better die with a smile than live with tears
Mar 16, 2020
50
Love is great. But also destructive. If you haven't loved yet, you think you need love for life.But that's not true. Even if you love someone, the emptiness remains, it is in YOU. Love gives an icing frosting to life. You know best if your life is now a cake or a shit heap.Love Greg
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Love is great. But also destructive. If you haven't loved yet, you think you need love for life.But that's not true. Even if you love someone, the emptiness remains, it is in YOU. Love gives an icing frosting to life. You know best if your life is now a cake or a shit heap.Love Greg
Basically this. Love is amazing but it's not the be all and end all of everything. You're sill so young and have so much time to fall in love.
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Love is great. But also destructive. If you haven't loved yet, you think you need love for life.But that's not true. Even if you love someone, the emptiness remains, it is in YOU. Love gives an icing frosting to life. You know best if your life is now a cake or a shit heap.Love Greg
It would be hell if the person you love doesn't love you back. I wouldn't be suicidal if I received the love that I wanted. So of course I am empty.
 
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Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
When you're single you want a partner and when you have a partner you sometimes wish you were single. All I can say is I regret not breaking up with my ex at the start of the relationship, the main reason I'm here is because of my shitty relationship
Peace/hugs
 
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xXSarac3nSlay3rXx

“Leaving this world is not as scary as it sounds.”
Mar 3, 2019
248
When you're single you want a partner and when you have a partner you sometimes wish you were single. All I can say is I regret not breaking up with my ex at the start of the relationship, the main reason I'm here is because of my shitty relationship
Peace/hugs
What a lovely catch-22!

P.S. no pun intended
 
SpareWheel

SpareWheel

I go on holidays by mistake
May 4, 2020
354
I didn't love anyone til I was mid 30s. I'd had long term relationships as well as short term ones, but hadn't felt proper love til 34ish. Fuck, at 18 I was juggling 4-5 women and hoping I'd not fall for one of them, so you've got plenty of time.
 
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Nyxx33

Nyxx33

Member
May 8, 2020
94
Meh I've kinda given up on that. Everyone just wants something from you. My parents love me. Other people Im suspicious of. My ex supposedly did but I just made him miserable. That wasn't love.
 
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mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
I don't think I've ever been in love other than unrequited love as a teenager. I'm 29 and I've had several short relationships :(
 
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TacoBell

TacoBell

Member
May 18, 2020
20
I'm 18 and I've never experienced proper love
I've had girlfriends before but it just never felt like I was "falling for someone". I dont know why I'm posting this but I just want to let it out.
Honestly bro I really relate to you, I have a boyfriend who loves me dearly and.. I tell him I love him, but like I don't feel like I'm falling in love ??
(^ I do love him, but Idk)
Sometimes I wonder if I'm lying to him... Augh yikes.
Life's crazy.
Good luck with your love life tho bro

I'm sure you could eventually fall in love with someone if they're right for you.
 
Reiraku

Reiraku

Member
May 5, 2020
69
I'm 18 and I've never experienced proper love
I've had girlfriends before but it just never felt like I was "falling for someone". I dont know why I'm posting this but I just want to let it out.
Then you are way ahead of me already. I'm 24 and I never even had a girlfreind or even kissed someone, let alone do anything more than that. People ten years younger than me already have more experience in that department than I will ever have. Whenever I see threads like this I feel somewhat disconnected, I'm too fucked up even for people on this site. Whenever people write they feel lonely or unlocked or whatever but then talk about how they have friends and had several girlfriends or have one currently I feel like I don't belong here, because I didn't even have that.
Feels like the last train left 10 years ago and I'm still waiting at the station.
 

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