Felodese
Experienced
- Mar 31, 2024
- 278
I'm getting worse for the 100th this year as my ambivalence has me swinging back and forth like a pendulum. And now I just really want to let go completely, just let myself spiral into self-destructive madness, burning every bridge along the way. I want to hurt myself, I want to make others feel the kind of emotional pain they have inflicted on me. I want to push everyone away. I want to make everything just fall apart. I want to push myself over the edge so I can finally kill myself. I just want it to be over.
