Last preparations. Help with SN ASAP

[shame]

I have everything I need. Metoclopramide, ibuprofen and SN. My plan is really simple, since I'm too weak and don't have source for other medications.
As my another surgery soon and I'm already tired enough, want to use SN ASAP. I don't have set date, but I have time until Sunday.
Sounds irresponsible, I know. But it's easier for me psychologically.

I decided not to test my SN, cause the source is reliable enough. If I will try to get distilled water and make a mess with testing, family will understand everything. They keep an eye on me since I'm over suicidal.

Please, help me with next questions:

1)According to instruction to metoclopramide I need not more than 15 mg a day. I don't want to suffer from overdosing additionally to SN effect. Is it ok if I will take only 30 mg 1 hour before SN?
2) I have weak stomach, so vomiting is likely for me, but I can't fast more than 6 hours. Is it enough time?
3) My physical condition is really bad, my weight is 30 kg and my blood pressure is really low every time. I'm going to use 20 g of SN in 80 ml of water. Probably it'll reduce the risk to throw everything up. Your advices?
4) I have 100 g of SN, the rest I'm going to throw out in a sink, cause in case of failure I can't hide and store it. Is it safe for my family? Stupid question, but isn't it toxic if sun will inhale it?
5) Can I dissolve SN at least 1 hour beforehand?

P.S. I'm going to prepare 1 glass (I'm sure I won't be able to bring myself drink second).

Any advices are highly welcome!

 

[mfjajs]

1. Meto 30mg is recommended 45 minuts/ 1 hour

2. 6 hours should be enough

3. You barley weight anything 20g is enough most go with 25g.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I have everything I need. Metoclopramide, ibuprofen and SN. My plan is really simple, since I'm too weak and don't have source for other medications.
As my another surgery soon and I'm already tired enough, want to use SN ASAP. I don't have set date, but I have time until Sunday.
Sounds irresponsible, I know. But it's easier for me psychologically.

I decided not to test my SN, cause the source is reliable enough. If I will try to get distilled water and make a mess with testing, family will understand everything. They keep an eye on me since I'm over suicidal.

Please, help me with next questions:

1)According to instruction to metoclopramide I need not more than 15 mg a day. I don't want to suffer from overdosing additionally to SN effect. Is it ok if I will take only 30 mg 1 hour before SN?
2) I have weak stomach, so vomiting is likely for me, but I can't fast more than 6 hours. Is it enough time?
3) My physical condition is really bad, my weight is 30 kg and my blood pressure is really low every time. I'm going to use 20 g of SN in 80 ml of water. Probably it'll reduce the risk to throw everything up. Your advices?
4) I have 100 g of SN, the rest I'm going to throw out in a sink, cause in case of failure I can't hide and store it. Is it safe for my family? Stupid question, but isn't it toxic if sun will inhale it?
5) Can I dissolve SN at least 1 hour beforehand?

P.S. I'm going to prepare 1 glass (I'm sure I won't be able to bring myself drink second).

Any advices are highly welcome!

please consider preparing a second glass if you want to succeed. in case you throw up you will need at least a second cup or glass right away. I know you are only 30 kg, most people use 25 grams of SN regardless of weight but I know there is a set chart available for SN dose based on body weight, maybe you used that. some people do the Stat method for SN, so 30 mg meto an hour before is okay, some people take nothing at all besides the SN. good luck.

 

[shame]

please consider preparing a second glass if you want to succeed. in case you throw up you will need at least a second cup or glass right away. I know you are only 30 kg, most people use 25 grams of SN regardless of weight but I know there is a set chart available for SN dose based on body weight, maybe you used that. some people do the Stat method for SN, so 30 mg meto an hour before is okay, some people take nothing at all besides the SN. good luck.

Thank you for response.

Can I ask, as I'm relatively new. Did you witnessed smn who needed second glass?

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Thank you for response.

Can I ask, as I'm relatively new. Did you witnessed smn who needed second glass?

yes, some took it just to "be sure" and some needed it do to vomiting.

 

[shame]

yes, some took it just to "be sure" and some needed it do to vomiting.

It's more scary than I thought it's going to be. 2 glasses of this sh**.. I wish I could manage at least 1..

 

[CantDoIt]

Most people seem to fail fully drinking the second cup. Symptoms can be kind of distracting.

 

[shame]

Most people seem to fail fully drinking the second cup. Symptoms can be kind of distracting.

Now I don't know what to do.
I'll drink it when my family will be sleeping. I need to be quiet.

 

[LunarLight]

Now I don't know what to do.
I'll drink it when my family will be sleeping. I need to be quiet.

Be careful as you'll most likely throw up and breathe loud.

 

[shame]

Be careful as you'll most likely throw up and breathe loud.

I know. Otherwise I need to escape.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Thank you for response.

Can I ask, as I'm relatively new. Did you witnessed smn who needed second glass?

Most people here prepare 2-3.

This list doesn't seem to mention # of glasses but I'ma include it anyway in case its helpful

SN Successful and Unsuccessful cases 2023 update

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Now I don't know what to do.
I'll drink it when my family will be sleeping. I need to be quiet.

Please be mindful. This is not a silent process.

 

[gasterblaster]

SN is considered hazardous waste. I would discourage throwing it away as regular garbage, or through the sink/toilet. Try following your local regulations for this substance and dispose the excess/take to a collection site before the day you ctb.

 

[shame]

SN is considered hazardous waste. I would discourage throwing it away as regular garbage, or through the sink/toilet. Try following your local regulations for this substance and dispose the excess/take to a collection site before the day you ctb.

Why do you think sink is not suitable?

Honestly, I don't think we have local regulations about how to get rid of SN..
Especially collection sites.

 

[gasterblaster]

Why do you think sink is not suitable?

Honestly, I don't think we have local regulations about how to get rid of SN..
Especially collection sites.

Sink isn't suitable since H400 hazard refers to ecotoxicity in water, even if diluted to small concentrations. Contaminated water has to be contained and disposed of properly even in urban areas despite the existence of water treatment plants.

I live in a third world country, and even though I won't get anything googling "how to dispose of hazardous waste", I can call an university or laboratory for the service they use for these things. Ultimately you can do whatever you want with the SN, after all there's people ctbing in playgrounds lol, but you asked for advice and me myself being in stem field had to let you know there is options. :,)

 

[Yarani]

Why do you think sink is not suitable?

Honestly, I don't think we have local regulations about how to get rid of SN..
Especially collection sites.

If you mean flushing it down the drain, I'm not convinced that's a good way to get rid of it, but whatever you do, make sure noone can come into skin contact with that stuff, get the idea to taste it, and any other hazardous behaviours. Once someone said that they had spilled it over their arms and then got symptoms. That substance is not a joke. Ensure safety.

 

[shame]

Sink isn't suitable since H400 hazard refers to ecotoxicity in water, even if diluted to small concentrations. Contaminated water has to be contained and disposed of properly even in urban areas despite the existence of water treatment plants.

I live in a third world country, and even though I won't get anything googling "how to dispose of hazardous waste", I can call an university or laboratory for the service they use for these things. Ultimately you can do whatever you want with the SN, after all there's people ctbing in playgrounds lol, but you asked for advice and me myself being in stem field had to let you know there is options. :,)

Thanks a lot! :)

 

[maynoname]

If you mean flushing it down the drain, I'm not convinced that's a good way to get rid of it, but whatever you do, make sure noone can come into skin contact with that stuff, get the idea to taste it, and any other hazardous behaviours. Once someone said that they had spilled it over their arms and then got symptoms. That substance is not a joke. Ensure safety.

Do you have to wear gloves to handle the SN?

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

I would definitely, definitely have the second cup there as backup. For peace of mind, if nothing else. Emergency services will most likely know what you ingested immediately if there's any discolouration. I wouldn't dispose of it. Can you keep it in a jar & sticky tape the lid shut, put that in a bag, and label the bag with a homemade "toxic" or "warning" "do not touch" sign???
Something to keep other people safe, but also there if you need it?
And I "think" I read somewhere that low blood pressure increases the chances of getting a bad headache - maybe be prepared for that.

 

[Yarani]

Do you have to wear gloves to handle the SN?

After having read that person's experience, that's what I did.

 

[gasterblaster]

Thanks a lot! :)

Sure, good luck with your plan(s), hope you can find peace with this method

 

[nasigoreng99]

Thanks a lot! :)

OP are you still around?
Hope you found your peace

 

[heavyeyes]

If you're not still around I hope you're resting well