last thing before u die

[Avisagia]

is there somthing you want to do/achive in your life before you die?

 

[divinemistress36]

Travel and do psychadelics

 

[APeacefulPlace]

Say a genuine goodbye to my best friend, however they may react : )

 

[Avisagia]

Travel and do psychadelics

cool, i tried MDMA not long ago (for the first time) was amazing! later i tried LSD which has turned to be a very bad experience haha.

 

[divinemistress36]

cool, i tried MDMA not long ago (for the first time) was amazing! later i tried LSD which has turned to be a very bad experience haha.

Im waiting to get into a clinical trial for MDMA. May I ask what your experience on mdma was like ? Lsd scares me

 

[Avisagia]

Im waiting to get into a clinical trial for MDMA. May I ask what your experience on mdma was like ? Lsd scares me

i basicly felt that everithig is good, iloved everyone and everthing around me it was like being in heaven for a few hours. also, colors are much more clear and bold. many people i know tend to take mdma during parties and festivals but i havent tried it yet. but it sound like it fits and can be very cool during a party with many people, colors and music. what is this clinicl trial? is it kind of a treatment?

 

[divinemistress36]

i basicly felt that everithig is good, iloved everyone and everthing around me it was like being in heaven for a few hours. also, colors are much more clear and bold. many people i know tend to take mdma during parties and festivals but i havent tried it yet. but it sound like it fits and can be very cool during a party with many people, colors and music. what is this clinicl trial? is it kind of a treatment?

Yes, mdma for ptsd low dose of course. I want to feel like I love everyone even if its just for a few hours

 

[Avisagia]

Yes, mdma for ptsd low dose of course. I want to feel like I love everyone even if its just for a few hours

oh i watched somthing on Netflix about those kund of uses of mdma. is it like you lay in a bed in a nice room and take a pill or something? anyway, you will certainly get a good quality of mdma, which is wonderful

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Nothing left for me to do. I'm 55 years old and done with life.

 

[saturn1402]

Spend as much time as possible with my dog

 

[laceydreams]

try drugs

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

No, my life is in shambles and I just want to exit as soon as possible. I'm so depressed that nothing I could do would give me pleasure anyways.

 

[vercabow]

the things i'd want to do ( ie see the northern lights, learn piano ) is so unobtainable that it doesn't matter. so no, i don't have anything i'd want to do

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally only wish to cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, to me existing is nothing but suffering and I suffer just from existing, I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist under all circumstances I could never see any point, value and benefit to being conscious in this existence rather I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. I see existence itself as the most cruel, tragic mistake that I wish was never imposed more than anything, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want peace from this existence of pointless suffering.

 

[zilk]

Before I eventually make the decision to CTB, I'll spend my remaining days doing the things I enjoy the most, which is:
-eating my favourite meals
-watching shows that i enjoy
-spending my last days with family

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

when i think about it rationally and logically there is nothing i would ever want to do in this life / existence / consciousness nor this world nor universe . i would never want anything in this evil world and evil life

just a few things out of many i noticed. this universe is entropic , all systems go to disorder, all systems decay. everything breaks down , dies, even the universe will die . the only way to keep some kind of temporary order in a system like a human body is to constantly work hard for example to keep feeding a human body and brain to power it and drink water rest sleep etc. you also have to constantly clean and order everything like a room or house otherwise it goes to disorder and gets dirty disordered etc. there is no way to overcome entropy eventually all humans and even stars like the Sun die. So evolution is like a gang that has kidnapped a human or other animal. And they constantly threaten a human with really bad pain to force them to constantly act. for example to go find food (groceries, hunting 100,000 years ago) eat all the time , go to the bathroom , chores , work etc. they only threaten a human for enough time to reproduce. evolution made pain worse and worse every generation to force the human or animal to do the massive work to take massive action to avoid pain like pain from hunger injury etc.

Evolution created a torture chamber the human brain. it took hundreds of millions of years making pain worse and worse. the ones that didn't feel pain bad enough didn't work hard enough to avoid pain and so died sooner and had less offspring.

life and evolution are an abomination a torture mechanism a kidnapper . we are all hostages with stockholm syndrome

this makes sense if you read how evolution works. only evolution would create a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. there is no god or programmer that would intentionally create this kind of pain torture and suffering .

notice how everything breaks down, humans get sick old decay die, everything needs to be fixed cleaned, problems all the time, many different kinds of suffering, every sentient animal is under constant threat of extreme torture

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nah, I don't give a shit about doing anything in life. Why would I want to do something that's life affirming if I'm going to ctb? I honestly can't care less about my final days just as long as it isn't painful. That said though, I suppose that I'd be looking at graveyards during my final moment to symbolise the outcome of my action. This is where I'd be in... this is where all of us would be in and it's so beautiful

 

[human909]

I don't think so, I mean I might go and travel a bit more but other than that really no point on doing anything so yeah.

 

[Avisagia]

I personally only wish to cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, to me existing is nothing but suffering and I suffer just from existing, I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist under all circumstances I could never see any point, value and benefit to being conscious in this existence rather I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. I see existence itself as the most cruel, tragic mistake that I wish was never imposed more than anything, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want peace from this existence of pointless suffering.

sounds quite philosofical. do you like read existencialist philosophy?

Before I eventually make the decision to CTB, I'll spend my remaining days doing the things I enjoy the most, which is:
-eating my favourite meals
-watching shows that i enjoy
-spending my last days with family

so simple and so true and honest.

 

[The_Hunter]

the things i'd want to do ( ie see the northern lights, learn piano ) is so unobtainable that it doesn't matter. so no, i don't have anything i'd want to do

I think you might be able to see the northern lights one day! hope you're able to travel to 'er the right place, and see 'em for yourself ;)

take care ^^

 

[Namelesa]

Maybe make the games I want to develop and live with my best friend for a bit but if after death is non-existence what's the point of putting in effort and pain to continue with life when I could die and not regret, care or feel anything in nothingness.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Have sex one more time , psychedelics, and say goodbye to certain people.
Have sex one more time , psychedelics, and say goodbye to certain people.

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

try lasagna, tacos, and other western foods

 

[Tig]

Nothing left for me to do. I'm 55 years old and done with life.

55, Just WOW.....

Lol, I hope don't get banned for this comment.
Worth it, after seeing your picture though.
No sorries, no worries,
Sucks to be 1% age wise, on this site, things were different back in the day, when people saw what they wanted to with unabashed candor.

is there somthing you want to do/achive in your life before you die?

Going on a last trip to foreign land to complete the mission with a friend, death will not find us alone.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

try lasagna, tacos, and other western foods

@Tig thank you for saying.. I did make a post once asking how many on this sight were over 50. It got a lot of responses. I think most of them just lurk on here. But I do find most on here are very young, which is sad. I try to share any words of wisdom where I can.

 

[Forveleth]

Nope. I am done being life's punching bag.

 

[L'absent]

No, I just have to deactivate the consciousness by any ultra-fast and painless means.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

If I had a way out I'd take it even without achieving anything. There's a lot of stuff I'd love to achieve but some I am sure I won't actually reach. About "doable" things maybe it'd be just nice if I could finish my personal programming projects before CTBing or having sex before dying perchance. Maybe trying alcohol for the first time.

I don't really have anything I set myself to do, I'd be fine without anything specific too

 

[Tig]

I did make a post once asking how many on this sight were over 50. It got a lot of responses. I think most of them just lurk on here. But I do find most on here are very young, which is sad. I try to share any words of wisdom where I can.

Yah, it's astounding how many young people the world has just burned out, stomped on or just given hope these days.
Is very very sad, the younger generations than us have given up as the times get harder and bleaker, with no real leadership in sight, anywhere in the world.

Used to think I had wisdom, but i don't know anymore, the kiddos are right, in there thinking, that the world is getting darker and darker everyday.
As we are looming on the brink of WW3, what chance do they have at attaining a peaceful, meaningful and productive life.

So many want to just bow out of this existence anymore.
Truly sad indeed, when the young are not joyous and happy to be alive anymore and just awaiting death.

I remember when it didn't used to that way.
What has the world come to, when meer babies want to die.

 

[HereIGoAgain24]

I'm tempted to travel to some developing country like Cambodia, find whatever drugs and sex I can, and just go out in an orgy of euphoria. This isn't as out there for me as it is for most; I teach English internationally (currently in China) and have enough in my savings to do it. I don't know what's keeping me from doing it, honestly.