IDontKnowEverything
Tired
- Mar 2, 2025
- 46
For now I'm trying really hard to stay alive but I don't think I'll actually ask this if I wait.
So, for you guys who have loved ones who you know will miss you, do you have any plans of leaving behind something extra?
For me it's my mother.
Our relationship is complicated, many things happened along the way but the fact remains that she does love me as her child.
I don't think I'll ever be able to say goodbye irl but a note is the least I could do.
To not leave without a word, I don't want to deny her that closure.
I did think of something one day though but I want her to have my necklace.
I've been wearing this things for over half a decade now every day without fail.
Even when it went badly with my clothes, there it was.
The ironic thing is that it was her own best friend who gave that necklace to me years ago. She CTB-ed two and a half months ago.
So, should I really leave that necklace to her?
Do you believe it will help her mourn?
Will it do the opposite of help? I'm personally afraid of that.
I believe that it is the object that would represent me the best out of anything else, and if there's anything that can really show some lingering presence of mine, it would be that necklace.
I already croched her different types of different coasters, made her tiny bell flowers she hung in a half hidden spot, bought her cool keychains, got her skull shot cups (it's both of our styles).
But she'll likely throw whatever of what she remembers was from me away once I'm gone.
She can do whatever she wants with the necklace really. Bury it in a flower pot (no garden, small apartment), put it away in a box, maybe wear it?
A part of me that is with her, do you think that she would want it?
I don't think she even remembers how I got it?
Should I tuck it in into my CTB note? Or would it just make things worse?
Also something I really wanted to ask in this tread but, do you guys have something specific you'd like to leave behind?
So, for you guys who have loved ones who you know will miss you, do you have any plans of leaving behind something extra?
For me it's my mother.
Our relationship is complicated, many things happened along the way but the fact remains that she does love me as her child.
I don't think I'll ever be able to say goodbye irl but a note is the least I could do.
To not leave without a word, I don't want to deny her that closure.
I did think of something one day though but I want her to have my necklace.
I've been wearing this things for over half a decade now every day without fail.
Even when it went badly with my clothes, there it was.
The ironic thing is that it was her own best friend who gave that necklace to me years ago. She CTB-ed two and a half months ago.
So, should I really leave that necklace to her?
Do you believe it will help her mourn?
Will it do the opposite of help? I'm personally afraid of that.
I believe that it is the object that would represent me the best out of anything else, and if there's anything that can really show some lingering presence of mine, it would be that necklace.
I already croched her different types of different coasters, made her tiny bell flowers she hung in a half hidden spot, bought her cool keychains, got her skull shot cups (it's both of our styles).
But she'll likely throw whatever of what she remembers was from me away once I'm gone.
She can do whatever she wants with the necklace really. Bury it in a flower pot (no garden, small apartment), put it away in a box, maybe wear it?
A part of me that is with her, do you think that she would want it?
I don't think she even remembers how I got it?
Should I tuck it in into my CTB note? Or would it just make things worse?
Also something I really wanted to ask in this tread but, do you guys have something specific you'd like to leave behind?
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