GalacticWarrior777
im at fault for all of this. try to help but hurt
- Sep 24, 2024
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Anybody else feels like this? Where life is just a cruel, everlasting loop that gets worse and worse every time the loop replays?
I've been feeling like this for the past 5 or so years, ever since my friend died in a car crash. Ever since life seems to replay itself, but every next replay the scenarios change a little, but for the worse each time. I've tried finding exits from the loop, but every single time I find the exit from this loop, it just dissapears, and it seems that suicide might be the only way out, but just as much as I want to die, I also want to live, but outside of the loop. Away from all the things that break me; my family, my friends, school. I'm trying to hold back from comitting suicide, but the other self that wants to commit it just gets stronger and stronger, and it gets harder and harder to hold on to my dear life. If I somehow would make it to the end of highschool, maybe then I could escape the loop. I don't expect much from life, as If I somehow would escape this terrifying loop, I'd just get a psychologist therapy to possibly get back on the track.
Wishing you guys all the best if you are experiencing something similar.
I've been feeling like this for the past 5 or so years, ever since my friend died in a car crash. Ever since life seems to replay itself, but every next replay the scenarios change a little, but for the worse each time. I've tried finding exits from the loop, but every single time I find the exit from this loop, it just dissapears, and it seems that suicide might be the only way out, but just as much as I want to die, I also want to live, but outside of the loop. Away from all the things that break me; my family, my friends, school. I'm trying to hold back from comitting suicide, but the other self that wants to commit it just gets stronger and stronger, and it gets harder and harder to hold on to my dear life. If I somehow would make it to the end of highschool, maybe then I could escape the loop. I don't expect much from life, as If I somehow would escape this terrifying loop, I'd just get a psychologist therapy to possibly get back on the track.
Wishing you guys all the best if you are experiencing something similar.