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LunarPyotr

LunarPyotr

Похорони меня возле МКАДа
Jul 4, 2020
495
Well, another update post...
Let's say that I'm struggling but it could be worse I guess.

That girl, the one from psych ward, she's out from there and we're living together right in my apartment and she's now my GF. I could say that so far we're "a perfect team".
She encouraged me to get a job, somewhat of a shitty job but it pays well, it helped improve my body and most of the people there are very nice. Most because the boss is an grumpy old man and a black guy who is kinda annoying. Not because I'm racist or anything like that but rather because he jokes around and those jokes don't sound like jokes and I always take them really seriously. This really goes on my nuts. Today I almost lost my mind after I got too much things to do and there were some issues with the contracts 10 minutes before I was getting ready to drive home.

There were also some issues with the device which I use to do some sensitive stuff like visiting this forum. Basically I messed up a command and broke the user interface of my Linux (operating system) installation on my little Lenovo laptop.
It took me quite a long time to fix it and today I fully restored the UI, had to install a 13gb update and instantly had to check if this forum is still alive.
After this incident, I'll have to setup an encrypted virtual machine on my gaming PC and sync my password manager with it since I got logged out on my phone form this forum :ahhha: I definitely learned from my mistake

What's else..
I'm glad that I don't constantly think about "ending it all"...
On one side, my life somewhat sucks but on the other side, a lot of positive things happened over the past couple of months and I'm not alone anymore.

Anyway, this was the update on my current recovery process and I hope that I'll find more time to visit this forum but until now I hope you're also doing well out there and see ya next time. Maybe on a different thread or on my PM section. My anonymous SIM card is not active anymore. Forgot to recharge it and now it's locked. I'll be getting a new one from Swiss and see if there are some old friends, from this forum, still active on the IM apps which I used before :nomouth:
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
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They should really prescribe girlfriends instead of SSRIs.
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

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Mar 11, 2022
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Just wanted to say that I'm glad to hear that you're recovering.

I hope things continue to improve for you.

I wish you the best. Keep us posted.
 
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LunarPyotr

LunarPyotr

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Jul 4, 2020
495
They should really prescribe girlfriends instead of SSRIs.
Could be a solution but I personally am interested in long lasting relationship.
I'm sick and tired of the things that happened before. Maybe that's what was engraved in my "storyline"?
Maybe that's why I'm getting way better along with her than with my ex'es and I'm so accepting of her possessive nature.

Only time will tell if I was right : P
 

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