I had to get a genetic test because meds were not working for me. I've been through many. I process most meds too fast for them to be anything but just the bad side effect so I don't think most of my experience is worth anything for anyone else.
Currently I'm prescribed for:
- duloxetine for Depression and Anxiety
Haven't taken any of this in months to be frank. Take some every once in a while at a much too high dose to make myself feel as physically awful as I do mentally. Side effects when doing so often include:
- Dissociation, déréalisation, brain fog and inability to process thoughts, sounds, words, body language and more —Very well or even hardly at all
- exhaustion, lack of dexterity or ability to work with my hands, stand, run, walk, generally use my kind in more than basic motions at its most extreme
- constant headaches, if not moderate to severe migraines, especially because my pupils will stop dilating sometimes
- emotional apathy, loss of brain to mouth/mental filter, unnatural chattiness, and lack of appetite
- constant nausea, dizziness, lightheaded, prone to passing out
Tried getting back on once and I felt just as bad even when talking a very small amount. I've probably trained my body to react to it poorly now in all honesty.
Initially it was okay, but really it's a 2-3/10 because it didn't do much but it also didn't cause me much problems when I was taking it regularly to actually give it a chance unlike so many others.
Taking it after being off of it for a while is a -3/10 unless I'm doing it as SH then it's probably a 5/10 on the successful or satisfying SH/pain level scale
- Wellbutrin for Anxiety, Panic disorder, depression, and basic ADHD management until I can get proper medication but getting the diagnosis properly (not just pseudo diagnosis' from my psychiatrist + therapist) would be too expensive at the present.
I'd say 7/10 total.
- Has potential risk coupled with my ED but haven't had a seizure yet so I'm not too worried.
- Works for the most part okay with making day time day easier. 4/10 on effectiveness.
- Hasn't fixed anything but doesn't have any side effects and little to no problems when I forget to take it and then Get back on which are is biggest pluses.
- One dosage means less hassle with easing into or off of it which is nice as well.
Hydroxyzine for panic attacks
1/10 — sedates me horribly for up to 72 hours depending on my general body/physical and mental state at the time of taking them, levels of sleep in the past 48 hours and dosage, etc. Takes too long to kick in for my liking but will cut a 2-3 hour long paralyzing panic attack into 30-40 minutes depending on if I can take it in time. Does a good job preventing panic attacks but practically renders me useless until sedation and other effects are out of my system.
Other side effects alongside or part of sedation from Hydroxyzine for me includes:
- light Dissociation, brain fog and some inability to process thoughts, sounds, words
- extreme lethargy and weight/difficulty to doing anything moderate or more with my body
- headaches, light emotional apathy, self isolation tendencies (if lasting for a longer period), and lack of appetite
