Venting LMAO

[angelcircuit]

yeah anyway so fuck recovery. my birthday is in a month and i dont even care. i thought i could get better and get my shit together and whatever but i cant. i cant make the things i want to put out in the world, no one gives a fuck anyway, and im just tired of feeling like a waste of space and talent. why can i draw decently (reluctantly saying that) if like 5 people only care for like a second before moving on? why can i dream up these worlds and shit if i cant even put pen to paper and share them? why should i have a brain if all it does is poison me constantly?

i've tried. i really did. i ended friendships with people i knew who were bad for me, i tried being positive, i tried being kind to myself and taking my time on things and try not to care if people are receptive to it or not. it worked for like a month and a half and even then it was a band-aid. i tried to heal. i couldnt. i feel like im constantly fucking drowning and ill never claw my way back up, and trying to makes me look pathetic.

people were born on top. i wasnt. people were strong enough to put themselves out there and by some miracle they have the life i dreamed of. i tried and tried and tried and i cant keep going on like this for more years of disappointment and wishing i just killed myself when i had the chance.

im still so fucking upset my SN got taken from me, if i woke up a moment earlier i wouldnt be here right now. a few months ago i would think about how scary that was, that i was almost gone completely. now im pissed that im still here.

im going to try and make these expired prescription pills work somehow, i have literally nothing else. it is going to be painful as hell, i have a good chance of living, but at this point if thats a risk i have to take then so be it. i cant give up on this, too.

uhhh anyway heres some art ill never finish. if one of my friends happen to stumble upon this post and recognize me somehow i dont care anymore. just want to show you wasted "talent."

wow i love myself

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

At least you can draw something other than sans motherfucking undertale.
I found out the hard way of drawing the exact same thing for years. With sans. Yes you heard me. Sans from fucking undertale. Now I can't draw anything else even decently without a reference

 

[angelcircuit]

At least you can draw something other than sans motherfucking undertale.

LMAO thats oddly specific
EDIT: OH yeah thats... so fair. I actually loved to draw Sans too, ever since I was a kid since he was my first ever fictional crush. But dude, references literally are like 70 percent of the drawing, im not kidding. if popular artists didnt have references then they wouldnt be popular. all us artists would be doomed

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

LMAO thats oddly specific

Yea. The story is. A curious fella decides to draw sans. Practices drawing him for so long its the only thing he can draw really good.

 

[angelcircuit]

Yea. The story is. A curious fella decides to draw sans. Practices drawing him for so long its the only thing he can draw really good.

i'd genuinely would love to see your art of sans though

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

i'd genuinely would love to see your art of sans though

Lol. I preferably draw on paper. But my camera is shit. I can still draw online if you want me too.

 

[angelcircuit]

Lol. I preferably draw on paper. But my camera is shit. I can still draw online if you want me too.

YES please! either way id love to see :) Sans is still one of my faves and i would be so happy to see your work

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

YES please! either way id love to see :) Sans is still one of my faves and i would be so happy to see your work

Uhh. Here. (Drew this in like 2 minutes.)

 

[angelcircuit]

Uhh. Here. (Drew this in like 2 minutes.)

OH MY GOSSSHHH ITS SANS THE SKELETON :D I LOVE HIM you werent kidding about drawing him well LOL esp under 2 MINUTES?
this may sound weird but i like how you draw him pretty accurately... like lots of people draw him more anime-like or something. thank you so much for sharing AND AND if you ever have more art i would love to see fr :)

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

OH MY GOSSSHHH ITS SANS THE SKELETON :D I LOVE HIM you werent kidding about drawing him well LOL esp under 2 MINUTES?
this may sound weird but i like how you draw him pretty accurately... like lots of people draw him more anime-like or something. thank you so much for sharing AND AND if you ever have more art i would love to see fr :)

Well then, I usually draw sans in 2 different art styles. That's the first one. Its when I feel lazy. The second is more time taking but better looking. Btw the way i draw sans is not consistent at all! anyway Here's an example on the second one. (Its was for a friend, helped him out on his sans drawing, so I drew him an entire drawing, took about 30 minutes)

OH MY GOSSSHHH ITS SANS THE SKELETON :D I LOVE HIM you werent kidding about drawing him well LOL esp under 2 MINUTES?
this may sound weird but i like how you draw him pretty accurately... like lots of people draw him more anime-like or something. thank you so much for sharing AND AND if you ever have more art i would love to see fr :)

Here's another piece of my art. Always had a dream of making a 2D platform. So out of boredom. Try to make a sprite of monsoon (from metal gear rising: revengence) sorry for it being off centered. Used pixilart. Also tested out my coloring on sprites.

 

[angelcircuit]

Well then, I usually draw sans in 2 different art styles. That's the first one. Its when I feel lazy. The second is more time taking but better looking. Btw the way i draw sans is not consistent at all! anyway Here's an example on the second one. (Its was for a friend, helped him out on his sans drawing, so I drew him an entire drawing, took about 30 minutes)

Here's another piece of my art. Always had a dream of making a 2D platform. So out of boredom. Try to make a sprite of monsoon (from metal gear rising: revengence) sorry for it being off centered. Used pixilart. Also tested out my coloring on sprites.

EEESJKFHD THEYRE AWSOME!!! :D When you say 2d platform are you talking about making a 2d game? (just making sure) because that was def one of my dreams too :)

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

EEESJKFHD THEYRE AWSOME!!! :D When you say 2d platform are you talking about making a 2d game? (just making sure) because that was def one of my dreams too :)

Yea. 2d game basically