kmycluisfe
"I’m a pluviophile"
- Mar 8, 2023
- 48
Hello everyone,
I'm making this thread because I feel like I'm ruining my relationship with the girl I love. I need to talk about it.
I'm a student, and in the 4th year of my program, I'm required to study abroad. I'm currently in China, and it's been 3 months so far.
I'm not here to self-diagnose, but based on what my girlfriend, who is neurodivergent herself, has told me, there's a chance I might be neurodivergent too. I've always struggled socially: I can't communicate well with people, I tend to keep to myself, and I prefer spending time alone.
This has become a big problem here in China because I live in the school dormitory, sharing a single room with three other people. It's unbelievably hard for me. It's unreal how inconsiderate people can be.
I've already switched rooms once because, in my first dorm, my roommate would invite people over to play games, and they'd make so much noise until at least 3 AM. Shouting, laughing, and raging. I couldn't take it. So, I switched rooms with someone else, but it's the same story here. I don't get it. Are all social people like this? Do they not care about how their actions affect others?
One of my current roommates plays games or watches videos without using earbuds or a headset. He just blasts the sound so everyone can hear it. He also uses a mechanical keyboard that's incredibly noisy. He plays fighting games or rhythm games until 3 AM with another guy, and they scream like I don't even exist. I just want to sleep, but I can't. It's driving me insane.
And I can't say anything to them. I'm too scared. Even thinking about confronting them makes my heart race. It feels impossible.
My only outlet is talking to my girlfriend. I vent to her about how I feel because I need someone to listen. But I know I'm annoying her. I go to her crying about my situation, but I don't do anything to fix it, and that frustrates her.
She's angry and fed up with me constantly complaining without taking action. And I get it, but it's just so hard for me. Now, my only outlet is damaging my relationship.
I'm bad at long-distance relationships. I'm not the type to send lots of texts or share details about my day because I think my day is boring. I might be depressed (though I haven't been diagnosed), so every day feels like a struggle. What can I even tell her? All I do is complain, and I'm scared I'll lose her because of it.
Today felt like a breaking point. She told me that if I don't change, we won't last until I return to France. She said she doesn't want to hear me complain anymore.
I don't know what to do. I'm scared I'm ruining everything.
I don't know what I expect by writing this. I just needed to put it somewhere. If you have any advice, I'd appreciate it. I'll read it and try my best. I'm just so lost.
I'm making this thread because I feel like I'm ruining my relationship with the girl I love. I need to talk about it.
I'm a student, and in the 4th year of my program, I'm required to study abroad. I'm currently in China, and it's been 3 months so far.
I'm not here to self-diagnose, but based on what my girlfriend, who is neurodivergent herself, has told me, there's a chance I might be neurodivergent too. I've always struggled socially: I can't communicate well with people, I tend to keep to myself, and I prefer spending time alone.
This has become a big problem here in China because I live in the school dormitory, sharing a single room with three other people. It's unbelievably hard for me. It's unreal how inconsiderate people can be.
I've already switched rooms once because, in my first dorm, my roommate would invite people over to play games, and they'd make so much noise until at least 3 AM. Shouting, laughing, and raging. I couldn't take it. So, I switched rooms with someone else, but it's the same story here. I don't get it. Are all social people like this? Do they not care about how their actions affect others?
One of my current roommates plays games or watches videos without using earbuds or a headset. He just blasts the sound so everyone can hear it. He also uses a mechanical keyboard that's incredibly noisy. He plays fighting games or rhythm games until 3 AM with another guy, and they scream like I don't even exist. I just want to sleep, but I can't. It's driving me insane.
And I can't say anything to them. I'm too scared. Even thinking about confronting them makes my heart race. It feels impossible.
My only outlet is talking to my girlfriend. I vent to her about how I feel because I need someone to listen. But I know I'm annoying her. I go to her crying about my situation, but I don't do anything to fix it, and that frustrates her.
She's angry and fed up with me constantly complaining without taking action. And I get it, but it's just so hard for me. Now, my only outlet is damaging my relationship.
I'm bad at long-distance relationships. I'm not the type to send lots of texts or share details about my day because I think my day is boring. I might be depressed (though I haven't been diagnosed), so every day feels like a struggle. What can I even tell her? All I do is complain, and I'm scared I'll lose her because of it.
Today felt like a breaking point. She told me that if I don't change, we won't last until I return to France. She said she doesn't want to hear me complain anymore.
I don't know what to do. I'm scared I'm ruining everything.
I don't know what I expect by writing this. I just needed to put it somewhere. If you have any advice, I'd appreciate it. I'll read it and try my best. I'm just so lost.
