Hi I'm new here and have already found so much information. Thank you!
I am looking into options and I think SN might overall work out best for me if I could only get my hands on some. I've been searching online and found a potential site (starts with m). Not sure if it's legit. I don't want to spend a lot of money if it's a scam. I checked scamvoid and it's showing that m* site is probably ok?? It's showing low site traffic as a point of potential concern. I don't know if anyone else has had a similar experience and if so, any advice? I'm in the US, which I'm reading is now a tough place to get SN.
My second choice is CO, but oddly that seems more difficult because picking a safe and viable location is hard to practice with chimney starters (can't do it at home, way too suspicious). And I'm worried about it not working because I don't know how much coal to use and I'm scared of inadvertently starting a fire. I would have to do this is my car, which is 11 years old so not sure what the seals are like for this. I don't know if I can last until winter to do this either (read comments about the heat). Is it so hot that you absolutely can't do it in the summer?
Lastly, I am researching guns (my state just passed one of the most restricted gun laws so there's a lot of hoops involved just to get a gun). I don't like this because of all the legal paperwork involved, and I keep wondering if someone would steal the gun after I am gone. I also don't know if I could aim correctly. I have shot handguns a few times before, but I'm by no means comfortable. I was thinking of 357 revolver since revolvers are easier to handle.
I looked into a bridge as well, but there aren't NY near me that is high enough (I think 200 - 700 feet is what I read). There is a famous "suicide bridge" but it has safety netting in place now. I don't want to hit anything on the fall down. And while I don't want a long fall to freak out, it seems this is a very quick (though painful) way to go.
I'm rambling a bit because I'm still sorting through things. I've lived with feelings of wanting to stop existing for so long. It's worse now and I am just tired. There are days I want to end it so badly, the fastest and easiest way (gun to the head or jumping), hence why those are on my list. Ideally I'd prefer SN as it would be relatively simple - rent a hotel and drink to eternal peace.
I know I'm a new member so I don't expect PM's (though happy to be surprised). I'd love a source for SN, or some advice on how much coal to use for a smaller SUV. How to protect against fire starting. What kind of tape to use. Duct tape brand matter? It seems like some aren't as hardy as I remember them being... Does it matter? Do I tape up anything else inside the car apart from vents?
Anyway, thanks for all the information and support. This is such a valuable resource. I'm glad I found out about SuSa. Wish I found you much sooner. I might be resting in eternal peace by now...
I am looking into options and I think SN might overall work out best for me if I could only get my hands on some. I've been searching online and found a potential site (starts with m). Not sure if it's legit. I don't want to spend a lot of money if it's a scam. I checked scamvoid and it's showing that m* site is probably ok?? It's showing low site traffic as a point of potential concern. I don't know if anyone else has had a similar experience and if so, any advice? I'm in the US, which I'm reading is now a tough place to get SN.
My second choice is CO, but oddly that seems more difficult because picking a safe and viable location is hard to practice with chimney starters (can't do it at home, way too suspicious). And I'm worried about it not working because I don't know how much coal to use and I'm scared of inadvertently starting a fire. I would have to do this is my car, which is 11 years old so not sure what the seals are like for this. I don't know if I can last until winter to do this either (read comments about the heat). Is it so hot that you absolutely can't do it in the summer?
Lastly, I am researching guns (my state just passed one of the most restricted gun laws so there's a lot of hoops involved just to get a gun). I don't like this because of all the legal paperwork involved, and I keep wondering if someone would steal the gun after I am gone. I also don't know if I could aim correctly. I have shot handguns a few times before, but I'm by no means comfortable. I was thinking of 357 revolver since revolvers are easier to handle.
I looked into a bridge as well, but there aren't NY near me that is high enough (I think 200 - 700 feet is what I read). There is a famous "suicide bridge" but it has safety netting in place now. I don't want to hit anything on the fall down. And while I don't want a long fall to freak out, it seems this is a very quick (though painful) way to go.
I'm rambling a bit because I'm still sorting through things. I've lived with feelings of wanting to stop existing for so long. It's worse now and I am just tired. There are days I want to end it so badly, the fastest and easiest way (gun to the head or jumping), hence why those are on my list. Ideally I'd prefer SN as it would be relatively simple - rent a hotel and drink to eternal peace.
I know I'm a new member so I don't expect PM's (though happy to be surprised). I'd love a source for SN, or some advice on how much coal to use for a smaller SUV. How to protect against fire starting. What kind of tape to use. Duct tape brand matter? It seems like some aren't as hardy as I remember them being... Does it matter? Do I tape up anything else inside the car apart from vents?
Anyway, thanks for all the information and support. This is such a valuable resource. I'm glad I found out about SuSa. Wish I found you much sooner. I might be resting in eternal peace by now...
