
MatthewV3
Student
- Dec 15, 2021
- 107
Back in 2014 I had a surgery to remove my gallbladder. I was 15 then. I remember lying on the surgery table. I was scared, but excited too. I was thinking "How is it gonna be to loose consciousness?What if I'll wake up during the surgery?" The nurse injected me anesthetic substances and she said "the patient is ready for surgery, call the doctor". I was like "What? I'm not ready yet, I'm still conscious!" Then I decided that I will try to stay conscious as long as possible, I'll be fighting not to loose it, so maybe they'll have to give me additional dose or something. I was lying like that with my fists clenched and then...boom. I woke up at recovery room. I don't know how long did the surgery take but I didn't feel anything. I didn't exist for all that time, it was the most beautiful time in my life.
When I think of CTB, I wish it could be that peacefull and painless. If only I knew what kind of substances they use for anesthesia. Maybe it's fentanyl or I don't know.
When I think of CTB, I wish it could be that peacefull and painless. If only I knew what kind of substances they use for anesthesia. Maybe it's fentanyl or I don't know.