Love and relationship while being in depression

[Lunaloveflood]

Any of you having problems opening up? And/or trust/issue insecurity?

I just met someone and I've never been in a relationship but I kinda wanted to for once But it's just so complicated and it feels like another exhausting liability. It's like I need too much attention and reassuring but at the same time, I can't stand someone paying attention to me bc I just want to forget that I even exist.

I don't know if opening up is even possible, I'm so susceptible to the remarks and the belittling of my situation that a small thing can make me distrust the person (it kinda already happened with the person I'm talking to rn.)

So I think it's better for me to stay away from that person but nom I'm used to not be completely alone and I don't know if I could go back to self-isolation by my own will.

A part of me wants to ruin everything so this person can just run away from me but I'm scared of judgment so i just stand there not knowing what to do feel or say.

I don't know how a relationship can function for me I such a burden incapable of doing anything I don't understand why someone would want to be with me so i'm always thinking they'll get tired of me eventually.

 

[terry_a_davis]

If you feel they are genuine about you then take a chance, you might not rate yourself but they must see something in you. It's likely there will be times when it's not so good, like when you disagree or if you split up, but you may have good times too.

 

[Lunaloveflood]

If you feel they are genuine about you then take a chance, you might not rate yourself but they must see something in you. It's likely there will be times when it's not so good, like when you disagree or if you split up, but you may have good times too.

I don"t know yet if it's genuine but I think it's worth a try I'll see how all of this evolve
Thanks for your reply!

 

[BPD Barbie]

I don't trust anyone really, even my SO. I have extreme paranoia in regards to him. I don't open up either, I just pretend it's all OK while I'm decaying inside. It hasn't always been like this, the current relationship I have is just a toxic mess though which doesnt help.