
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
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Hello, for almost two months I've been living an enchanted interlude...
I felt like I'd found someone... we talked well online and on camera. He was very loving, very attentive, and so was I... then we were supposed to meet, but he couldn't (funeral). I suggested another date; he didn't want me to change... and all the affection he expressed in his messages gradually disappeared... In short, what a disappointment. We might have formed a friendship at best, but I wanted more. He had to leave his boyfriend (I didn't ask him; he told me right away), and it's dragging on...
In short, his behavior has changed little by little, and I see that I won't be able to form the romantic relationship I was hoping for... So here I am again, suicidal, and on this site.
I felt like I'd found someone... we talked well online and on camera. He was very loving, very attentive, and so was I... then we were supposed to meet, but he couldn't (funeral). I suggested another date; he didn't want me to change... and all the affection he expressed in his messages gradually disappeared... In short, what a disappointment. We might have formed a friendship at best, but I wanted more. He had to leave his boyfriend (I didn't ask him; he told me right away), and it's dragging on...
In short, his behavior has changed little by little, and I see that I won't be able to form the romantic relationship I was hoping for... So here I am again, suicidal, and on this site.