K
Kalista
Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
- Feb 5, 2023
- 424
haven't checked my mail for more than a year. mail box is full. decided to see one mail tonight from the hospital. the hospital that i was sent to when i told the mother fuckers to not call the cops on me as i was going home to sleep after having a talk with them about my attempt. something i did not want in the first fucking place. guess what? they don't speak to me anymore after what they've done. after i've expressed my complete anger towards them
it is almost 2k which i don't have. i will never pay this.
for the system to force you to be imprisoned and take away your fucking autonomy, your rights, then bill you for it is one of the most insane creations society has agreed to impose upon people. people expecting a sense of gratefulness from you after being fed drugs that you never wanted.
in a past post, someone has suggested to ignore the mail and phone calls and eventually the collection agency will leave me alone. they haven't stopped making automated calls. which is not a hard thing to keep consistent since it's automated. my phone is always off as i have no reason to keep it on leaving all calls to go to voicemail. no one contacts and checks up on me in anyway except for this god damn agency so there's no point. it's been more than a year and the calls hasn't stopped. also have a lot of mail from the hospital which i don't check the contents of and take out of the mail box except for the one.
i don't work anymore. lost my job at the aerospace company. they considered it as 'job abandonment.' they would have tried to find a reason to fire me anyway with all that has happened. i don't intend to work and be more miserable like many.
the plan was to use the rest of my retirement funds (which isn't much anymore) to see what can be done with it before it runs out or die early. so far, it has gone nowhere and i'm running out of money. i'm here in front of my computer every day for more than a year trying to make something work while dealing with everything else.
my body has gotten very weak and have lost a lot of muscle. there's always body pain which most of the time i take pain killers for. i try not to to prevent increase in tolerance for when i drink sn, but the pain can be unbearable and uncomfortable a lot of the time.
it is almost 2k which i don't have. i will never pay this.
for the system to force you to be imprisoned and take away your fucking autonomy, your rights, then bill you for it is one of the most insane creations society has agreed to impose upon people. people expecting a sense of gratefulness from you after being fed drugs that you never wanted.
in a past post, someone has suggested to ignore the mail and phone calls and eventually the collection agency will leave me alone. they haven't stopped making automated calls. which is not a hard thing to keep consistent since it's automated. my phone is always off as i have no reason to keep it on leaving all calls to go to voicemail. no one contacts and checks up on me in anyway except for this god damn agency so there's no point. it's been more than a year and the calls hasn't stopped. also have a lot of mail from the hospital which i don't check the contents of and take out of the mail box except for the one.
i don't work anymore. lost my job at the aerospace company. they considered it as 'job abandonment.' they would have tried to find a reason to fire me anyway with all that has happened. i don't intend to work and be more miserable like many.
the plan was to use the rest of my retirement funds (which isn't much anymore) to see what can be done with it before it runs out or die early. so far, it has gone nowhere and i'm running out of money. i'm here in front of my computer every day for more than a year trying to make something work while dealing with everything else.
my body has gotten very weak and have lost a lot of muscle. there's always body pain which most of the time i take pain killers for. i try not to to prevent increase in tolerance for when i drink sn, but the pain can be unbearable and uncomfortable a lot of the time.
Last edited: