reiII
maybe there's something more
- Dec 5, 2023
- 57
I guess since I'm here I'll get more things off my mind
Lately I've been manically yearning for my groomer. I'm not sure if this is associated with me missing my younger years and thinking they were happier (no, I cried just as much, but maybe it was a tiny bit better being a kid with no expectations) or not.
Regardless he made me feel loved in a way no one else can now. I loved being called a doll and a princess. But now I hold everyone else up to that standard I feel. Or do I? I don't understand myself anyway, I've given up on that endeavor
I've never had a traditional relationship with another boy where we fall in love, we hold hands and kiss. I've never had an actual relationship that wasn't long distance. I've only ever tried to meet with older men on dates for money in real life
I want to talk to him again, to make him feel sorry for what he created, but more than that I just want to give my entire self to him. So that part wins. But the thing is he likely knew it was wrong so he never told me personal details about himself, showed me his voice or any of his social medias. He won't respond to my messages on the game we used to play, it's been months since he last logged in. Why did he make me feel like I mattered so severely only to abandon me. You're the only one I've ever wanted to love in every way.
Flippy, I hope you live the life you deserve
I hope that it hurts
Lately I've been manically yearning for my groomer. I'm not sure if this is associated with me missing my younger years and thinking they were happier (no, I cried just as much, but maybe it was a tiny bit better being a kid with no expectations) or not.
Regardless he made me feel loved in a way no one else can now. I loved being called a doll and a princess. But now I hold everyone else up to that standard I feel. Or do I? I don't understand myself anyway, I've given up on that endeavor
I've never had a traditional relationship with another boy where we fall in love, we hold hands and kiss. I've never had an actual relationship that wasn't long distance. I've only ever tried to meet with older men on dates for money in real life
I want to talk to him again, to make him feel sorry for what he created, but more than that I just want to give my entire self to him. So that part wins. But the thing is he likely knew it was wrong so he never told me personal details about himself, showed me his voice or any of his social medias. He won't respond to my messages on the game we used to play, it's been months since he last logged in. Why did he make me feel like I mattered so severely only to abandon me. You're the only one I've ever wanted to love in every way.
Flippy, I hope you live the life you deserve
I hope that it hurts
