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r4hz

r4hz

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Nov 16, 2024
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my mom has been suicidal quite my whole life, shes been threatening suicide with eaach disagreement we had (she does the same to my dad) shit fucked me up and ive been considering just ending it myself too. im muslim and suicide is one of the major sins so i really shouldnt commit suicide. i dont know how to avoid these dark thoughts theyre driving me crazy, they keep getting worse each time my mom tries to poison herself or whatever method shes trying to end it with. im so lost..
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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I'm so sorry, that's absolutely abusive of her to be telling you those things.
 
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avoid_slow_death

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Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
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Don't take your life over this. In a twisted way, I feel this is what she wants. Attention. Attention to the point where she can make other people feel like her so she can justify it further by saying hiw she drove you to it. Again, not worth taking your life because someone is clearly so self centered they can't see how they are hurting those around them. Horrible behavior.
 
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Oct 21, 2023
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i'm so sorry šŸ«‚ i understand how you feel. my mom was the same way. i was always forced to pick up the pieces and shoulder the blame when she did something self-destructive. i vividly remember her pulling me aside when i was 13 and showing me her arms to ask if she needed to go to the hospital or not, and then demonstrating how she did it.

it is not, and will never be, your fault or your responsibility. some people shouldn't be respected as "parents" in any regard that isn't purely biological. please don't let her push this onto you.
 
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Hey, I want you to understand one thing and that is no matter what your mother has told you nor anyone. you are here for your own reason(s). Whether that be to live a happy life or to simply explore the world. Whatever it is you have that reason whether good or bad. You have a reason and you need to make sure you fulfill that reason. This is a tough spot, with thoughts being put into your head by someone that you're supposed to be able to trust with your darkest secrets. So just keep pushing through, if not for me do it for whatever you can believe in. Right now there's people that feel just like you, you're not alone you can survive this. I wish you the best.
 

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