Mom sad because of CTB or Relieved?

[dandan]

yeah, I think my mom and bro will get sad because of me CTB'ing, if I did... .but from what I'm thinking at the moment...
is my mom and my brother could also get feel relieved!

because having me as a brother or as a son, must be a pain for them...
so they can be relieved :)

I dunno I might chicken out from CTB I dunno.. im still considering and thinking...

 

[Mart]

I'm trying to find a way where my family doesn't have to figure out. I live with family but am very independent. I love my family and I want to spare them that grief of knowing I'm dead if I can. I would love to run away to another country, go out in the wilderness, and never be found.

 

[Youthanasia]

I have some opinions that may bother you...

Ending your existance IMO shouldnt be guided by what others might think at all. This line of thought leads me to think that you care about attention more than your life. I'm not objectively claiming that, keep this in mind.

That said, unless there's some REAL dislike between you and your parents, what they will feel is far away from relief. Losing a son/daughter is easily the worst emotional experience someone can have. It goes against the natural order of things.

There's no easy way to say this but yeah, your mom, my mom, your family, my family, all of them will have a substantial idea of what hell feels like when not only we die but when thet realize that we also committed suicide. It's no different for anyone but those who aren't close at all.

So my take is figure out your feelings about your life, and if you love your family, give them something to wipe their tears because odds are they will need it

 

[Apostle]

I'm trying to find a way where my family doesn't have to figure out. I live with family but am very independent. I love my family and I want to spare them that grief of knowing I'm dead if I can. I would love to run away to another country, go out in the wilderness, and never be found.

You would still be a missing person, though, which would worry your family. After enough time of your family being unable to contact you, and no one being able to find out what happened to you, they would eventually have to conclude that you died. It would just take more time and effort on their part to come to that conclusion. I obviously don't know your family, or exactly how they'd react, but to me it seems like that's what would most likely happen, so I urge you to think it over carefully.

 

[Mart]

You would still be a missing person, though, which would worry your family. After enough time of your family being unable to contact you, and no one being able to find out what happened to you, they would eventually have to conclude that you died. It would just take more time and effort on their part to come to that conclusion. I obviously don't know your family, or exactly how they'd react, but to me it seems like that's what would most likely happen, so I urge you to think it over carefully.

I feel like it's easier when you have that possibility that I'm still alive though. I don't want them to waste any money on trying to locate me. That's my worry.

 

[Apostle]

I feel like it's easier when you have that possibility that I'm still alive though. I don't want them to waste any money on trying to locate me. That's my worry.

That's the issue, though. As long as they think there's any possibility that you're alive, they're likely to keep looking. Setting aside all kinds of other things in their lives, spending all kinds of money, to find you.

 

[Mart]

That's the issue, though. As long as they think there's any possibility that you're alive, they're likely to keep looking. Setting aside all kinds of other things in their lives, spending all kinds of money, to find you.

I've thought about paying someone to message them from time to time as me. I would have no way of knowing they would fulfill that but I also don't think it would be that hard trying to find somebody to do that. Just for a time, one day they can stop. This is all just part of a fantasy though where everything goes to plan. I know reality is nothing will be that easy or simple but I'm just trying to find ways across my last mental roadblock.

 

[dandan]

yeah Mart come'on, your tripping

So my take is figure out your feelings about your life, and if you love your family, give them something to wipe their tears because odds are they will need it

Sure, I get your point.... as for the "relieve" im talking about is for 20 years they've lived with me having issues.... I wont even get into it... I do believe there's a little relieve they would be getting. Not compared to the hell they could feel for losing me, but sure a little relieve in the days forward where they dont have to be worried about me..