LuzurPhagget
Experienced
- Sep 15, 2019
- 288
Maybe I should be posting this in the recovery section but meh.
Yeah, it's been an interesting past couple of weeks/months. I actually DON'T think I'm going to kill myself...yet. Or, hopefully, not anytime soon actually!
I tried some shrooms about almost 2 weeks ago (again), but this time, I tried it a little differently (No, I did not shove them up my arse). And it seems to have actually motherfucking worked! So fucking bizzare. I mean, I feel how I used to feel months ago, before some bad shit happened. I actually feel alright. I can actually FEEL things. I feel more "connected" to everything, with a renewed sense of purpose. Wow, these magic mushrooms are really something. Such potential as medicine! Of course, it's not for everybody, but it's really crazy I might have found something that works for me! I wanted to wait it out to see if how I'm feeling was nothing more than a fluke/mini manic-like state, but it's been almost 2 weeks and so I think it's more or less "permanent."
Anyway, I actually don't feel like killing myself anymore right now. Still feel like I have a lot of things left to do. There will be challenges and I know it won't be easy, but I feel more confident in facing them now. Wow, the importance of medicine really cannot be overstated. I mean, part of me wishes I could have just "willed" it or meditated it away or some shit and I didn't have to rely so much on a chemical, but meh, what can I do. This is my journey.
It truly is mind-boggling. I really did feel like it was it for me. If it hadn't snowed that one weekend and my destination plans hadn't been compromised, things might have turned out VERY differently. It's fucking crazy.
Anyway, like I said, I still feel like I have things left to do that I would really like to get doing. The WORST may still be yet to come, but things are like this NOW and maybe that's enough. Cheers.
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Yeah, it's been an interesting past couple of weeks/months. I actually DON'T think I'm going to kill myself...yet. Or, hopefully, not anytime soon actually!
I tried some shrooms about almost 2 weeks ago (again), but this time, I tried it a little differently (No, I did not shove them up my arse). And it seems to have actually motherfucking worked! So fucking bizzare. I mean, I feel how I used to feel months ago, before some bad shit happened. I actually feel alright. I can actually FEEL things. I feel more "connected" to everything, with a renewed sense of purpose. Wow, these magic mushrooms are really something. Such potential as medicine! Of course, it's not for everybody, but it's really crazy I might have found something that works for me! I wanted to wait it out to see if how I'm feeling was nothing more than a fluke/mini manic-like state, but it's been almost 2 weeks and so I think it's more or less "permanent."
Anyway, I actually don't feel like killing myself anymore right now. Still feel like I have a lot of things left to do. There will be challenges and I know it won't be easy, but I feel more confident in facing them now. Wow, the importance of medicine really cannot be overstated. I mean, part of me wishes I could have just "willed" it or meditated it away or some shit and I didn't have to rely so much on a chemical, but meh, what can I do. This is my journey.
It truly is mind-boggling. I really did feel like it was it for me. If it hadn't snowed that one weekend and my destination plans hadn't been compromised, things might have turned out VERY differently. It's fucking crazy.
Anyway, like I said, I still feel like I have things left to do that I would really like to get doing. The WORST may still be yet to come, but things are like this NOW and maybe that's enough. Cheers.
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