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Sans

Sans

Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
350
I'm already sad enough as it is, but it makes me so much sadder knowing my childhood is gone. I was never one to have any friends or a relationship, but my childhood was some of the best years of my life. About 10 to 13 years old is when I had a blast, I had a lot of fun even without friends, and now I'm an adult and that part of my life is gone, never to be experienced again. All the other adults are now out partying and having sex and drinking (I'm in college so it's pretty often) and my parents often go to parties too and they're in their 40s. Meanwhile my days of fun are over, I'll most likely be lonely with no friends if I make it into my 20s, and there's probably no way I'll make it into my 40s. I see less and less reasons to live.
 
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Jeremy

Member
Jul 11, 2019
32
Yuuuuuuuuup. Relatable. Although my childhood sucked, but compared to adulthood it was slightly better.
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
I have not a single picture of me from the ages of 13-19. I was a ghost quasi-NEET. My parents were also divorcee's and oldfucks.
 
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talktomeplease

talktomeplease

not someone to talk to anymore.
Oct 26, 2019
7
Im able to be your friend DM me and we can start chatting! Im able to try and comfort you to the best of my ability's. :)
 
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TheGoodGuy

Illuminated
Aug 27, 2018
3,053
Childhood was paradise on Earth I truly lived life to its fullest I had tons of friends I was so happy no depression, apathy or suicidal thoughts I was just so happy and everything was so much fun and exciting e.g playing with toys, watching Cartoons, playing video games and there was so much emotion connected to it all, remember as a child when you woke up to see a beautiful snow covered landscape the amount of happiness you would feel like it couldnt be contained god I miss those times life was heaven on Earth and I will never experience it ever again.
 
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Nov 14, 2019
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I fully believe that as we get older the magic and happiness that we experienced in our younger years diminishes. I'm only relatively young myself, so I don't want to come across as arrogant, but think of how happy a child is when they receive a balloon. That feeling will never be experienced again after the first time. Remember the wonder and fascination you had when you were young and remember it fondly, for those experiences will never be so special again.
 
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NextBusLeaving

Specialist
Jun 24, 2019
334
You can recapture it. My hobbies are the best things from my childhood.
 
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EndItQuickly

Member
Oct 30, 2019
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I fully believe that as we get older the magic and happiness that we experienced in our younger years diminishes. I'm only relatively young myself, so I don't want to come across as arrogant, but think of how happy a child is when they receive a balloon. That feeling will never be experienced again after the first time. Remember the wonder and fascination you had when you were young and remember it fondly, for those experiences will never be so special again.
Yep, paying the bills spending most of your life in a place you hate with people who are just as miserable as you and are so transparently faking happiness wore me out so quickly. I can't imagine the horror of adding children to the mix. Being an adult in this life is not unlike torture.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
It's interesting to see people who long to go back to childhood because mine was the opposite. It was lonely, unloved, ignored, neglected, poverty, humiliation, getting screamed at, emotional, sexual, verbal abuse. I thought life would get better once I became an adult but I just ended up developing poor skills to navigate life which then ruined my adult life too. I was not learning from mistakes for some reason. Even though I was repeating the same painful mistakes. I'm in an adult prison now :(
 
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Susannah

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Jul 2, 2018
534
It's interesting to see people who long to go back to childhood because mine was the opposite. It was lonely, unloved, ignored, neglected, poverty, humiliation, getting screamed at, emotional, sexual, verbal abuse. I thought life would get better once I became an adult but I just ended up developing poor skills to navigate life which then ruined my adult life too. I was not learning from mistakes for some reason. Even though I was repeating the same painful mistakes. I'm in an adult prison now :(
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L-L

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Nov 14, 2019
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It's interesting to see people who long to go back to childhood because mine was the opposite. It was lonely, unloved, ignored, neglected, poverty, humiliation, getting screamed at, emotional, sexual, verbal abuse. I thought life would get better once I became an adult but I just ended up developing poor skills to navigate life which then ruined my adult life too. I was not learning from mistakes for some reason. Even though I was repeating the same painful mistakes. I'm in an adult prison now :(

Everyone takes different paths in life for different reasons. I truly believe that everything we do in life is determined for us by one thing or a other, and that it's human arrogance to look back and think we could change something going forward. After all - we make decisions based on what we know and the information in front of us so why would we make a different decision if we could repeat it? It doesn't make sense.

All we can do is look forward to the future and try to be mindful of past mistakes we've made - even if that doesn't stop us making them again.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Everyone takes different paths in life for different reasons. I truly believe that everything we do in life is determined for us by one thing or a other, and that it's human arrogance to look back and think we could change something going forward. After all - we make decisions based on what we know and the information in front of us so why would we make a different decision if we could repeat it? It doesn't make sense.

All we can do is look forward to the future and try to be mindful of past mistakes we've made - even if that doesn't stop us making them again.
Lol! I've heard these lines before but they don't help because it doesn't change anything.
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
I have not a single picture of me from the ages of 13-19. I was a ghost quasi-NEET. My parents were also divorcee's and oldfucks.

Same. My memories from that period is like a deep black hole, I can only remember a few brighter better moments. It's almost like I didn't exist during that time at all.
 
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