Story My dog is dying.

[W’ren]

So i took my dog to the vet yesterday and it turns out he has an incurable disease and it's just a matter of time before he is slowly paralyzed, rear end first, becomes incontinent and ultimately is no longer able to breathe.

His symptoms are what the vet has based this diagnosis on- and i had already guessed that this was the case, but i didn't want to face it.

My dog is the only reason i am alive. When he dies, i die.

His symptoms are so hard to watch- i will be buying a harness to help steady him, i'll start sleeping on my couch (assuming i actually sleep at some point) so that we can stay on the same floor at night (so he won't have to climb the stairs)…

I see other owners prolonging their dogs' struggles by getting them wheels for however short amount of time their dogs are able to use one. I won't be doing that. I will be giving my dog the gift of letting him go- rather than have him suffer the indignity of incontinence and dragging his hind end around inside the house. (Also, finances are at play in this… but i really think my decision would be the same).

This brings me to wishing that once he is gone, that those who supposedly care for me would love me enough to do the same for me- not let me suffer, and accept my wish to ctb, maybe even support it.

Life without my dog, (my best friend and constant companion), isn't somewhere i want to be.

My plan has always been to ctb once he was gone. Looks like that could be pretty soon… Not that i mind that, i am more than ready-

Looks like things are going to be pretty harsh, DM is not something i'd wish on any pet, why the hell is my brave beautiful boy going to have to have the end of his life be this way?

If i could take it on myself, i would do so in a heartbeat, to save him the indignity and the fear in what is to come.

 

[Fox in the Snow]

I'm so sorry to read this. I lost my darling girl a few weeks ago. She had cancer, we tried a few treatments then decided to go with comfort care. I think you know your dog and you are making the right decision, just because you can it doesn't mean you should (I used to be an ICU nurse and watched prolonged torture of humans, at least I could make a decision which meant my dog didn't endure hundreds of interventions...).
My thoughts are with you.
I hoped to CTB after my dog died. But I am still here. An empty husk of a being.
Take care x

 

[whywere]

I am so, so sorry to hear that you dog is moving on. I hope and pray he goes away in a peaceful and pain free manor. Please try and remember that you have your global family here to help you along the way. When I was growing up I had a beautiful snow white cat that got in rat poison and he died in my arms. That was in 1968, 53 years ago, and I still miss him. I have been able to hold him in my heart and that makes me feel good. I send you a lot of hugs, love, understanding and SUPPORT. We are all 1 family here, looking out for one another. Walter

 

[Pookie]

It's really hard losing a beloved pet. I know the feeling. My cat that was always by my side for 15 years got diagnosed with cancer and I didn't want to see her slowly suffer and waste away. So I had her peacefully euthanised.

Just remember that having your dog euthanised is the most selfless and loving thing you can do for your pet. You could so easily have been one of those people who selfishly prolongs their pet's suffering just so that they don't have to grieve.

Your pet couldn't have asked for a better owner.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry to hear this!

I've already lost three dogs and the pain is still in my heart.

I couldn't imagine what I'd do if Tomi, my current dog, died!

They should live much longer!!

 

[FuneralCry]

I have a cat and I know how our pets can mean a lot to us and they can be our reason to live. You are doing a kind thing letting him be euthanised. No living being should have to suffer. It must be really hard what you are going through. I wish you well.

 

[Callie Arcale]

Dear @Echo I am so sorry this is happening. I send many gentle hugs, and to your dog I send a nice bag of treats and a few cuddles. You are such a loving and lovely person!

 

[BlankUser]

I'm so sorry. You're an amazing dog owner. You do the best you can. When I was a kid I was very attached to the dog we had. His name was Seagull. But when he got old and he got paralyzed, he suffered a lot. So when I was in school, my mother called a vet and the vet euthanized him. When I came back from school... I was so sad and broken... I asked my mother, "What's wrong with him?". My mother replied "He's sleeping"... I knew what she meant. Then I laid on his mattress, I embraced him, I held him, and I cried for 3 hours.. . My tears were falling on his cold body... It's horrible, but life isn't fair. Giving an easy exit to those who suffer it's the best thing to do. Your dog would thank you Seagull was finally free of his pain, your dog will be too. That's the best we could do for them.

 

[W’ren]

Thank you all for your gentle words of comfort and support.
My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a pet, or pets… it is truly difficult. My last dig died seizing in my arms as i tried to shield his head from hitting the floor with my torso.
It was traumatizing- but i realized immediately that he had given me the gift of not having to make the decision of when his Time was.
Maybe my boy that i have now will take the decision from me too, who knows. But i have already touched base with a vet service that comes to your home to do it, and comes highly recommended-
I contacted her already because i'd like to meet her ahead of time and maybe have her visit my dog a couple of times, so she is not a stranger when the time comes.
It's such hard steps to take, but i need to think ahead, save up fir the cost and ensure his passing will be easiest on him as possible.

 

[ClownMe]

i can relate to this. my dog is the only reason I haven't committed suicide yet. I dont know how I will cope when he's gone.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

This hurts to read. Bonds with a pet are one of the most purest, happiest and loving connections in the world. I can't even imagine what you are feeling right now. Please make sure your pup is loved till the very end, maybe some cbd treats might help ease the pain for you pup if they experience it:) Ultimately, their comfort is one of the most important things in their final days but I have no doubt you wouldn't do anything less for them. Sending love to you both<3

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Echo, You know Me and Max are and always have/will be here for You 24/7, l reckon Max is about 6-months behind Indy Bonez illness wise, l'm giving him 2 Tablespoons of Glucosamine and half a pipette of CBD Oil (4800mg) mixed in with his dinner at 6pm, l've switched Max to 80/20 small drop kibbles (4kg bag's of Edmondson's Trout and Salmon=£38 a bag! I've seen small improvements but like You and Indy the inevitable is due! You are Always in our thoughts Echo and Indy Bonez, Try and get some sleep Please Echo, Hugs to You and gentle nose nuzzles to Indy Bonez xx. Mike and Max xx

 

[W’ren]

updating this thread.
my sweet boy passed away in my arms March 24 at home in his favourite spot by the couch, his belly full of filet mignon and bacon and peanut butter…
i lay there half on the floor and half overtop of him and told him to "go sleepies, go night-nights" as he passed out… told him i love him-
i felt his heart beating against my rib cage for a long time in the silence of the house, expecting it to stop and it was when i thought that maybe something had been done incorrectly- that maybe he would wake up instead and kiss my face- that his heart just… silenced.

i'm not sure who died then, him or me.
but i am still here breathing…
faking my way through each instant of the day and though i have other furkids to love and be responsible for- they are not him. They can't be him- and the emptiness grows each day.

3:33 am… and i'm missing him again.

it would be simpler to mark the moments i don't miss him-

 

[whywere]

updating this thread.
my sweet boy passed away in my arms March 24 at home in his favourite spot by the couch, his belly full of filet mignon and bacon and peanut butter…
i lay there half on the floor and half overtop of him and told him to "go sleepies, go night-nights" as he passed out… told him i love him-
i felt his heart beating against my rib cage for a long time in the silence of the house, expecting it to stop and it was when i thought that maybe something had been done incorrectly- that maybe he would wake up instead and kiss my face- that his heart just… silenced.

i'm not sure who died then, him or me.
but i am still here breathing…
faking my way through each instant of the day and though i have other furkids to love and be responsible for- they are not him. They can't be him- and the emptiness grows each day.

3:33 am… and i'm missing him again.

it would be simpler to mark the moments i don't miss him-

Reading your post broke my heart in a million pieces for you and him. I hope that you have awesome memories of him that will last a lifetime.

Having you as a good friend here on SS, I want you to know that I am with you hand in hand, thought to thought and you always have friends here who understand.

Just throwing it out there but maybe a new puppy, that one could both have new memories with and also honor your sweet boy? I had a cat, when I was growing up, a beautiful snow white kitten that got in rat poison and died, and a little while later I acquired a new one to have and hold and also honor the previous kitty.

Sending you lots and lots of huge hugs, love, caring and the knowledge that you are never ever alone here or anywhere.

All my best to you, my cherished friend.

Walter

 

[MsMaudlin]

I'm so sorry to hear how poorly your dog is.
The last final act of a good dog owner is to support them as they pass over, even though this is devastating and hurts so much.
Sadly my dog died recently. The silence in the house is palpable and I miss her so much. I can't wait to see her again one day soon

❤

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I lost my best bud "baby"(Maltese) when I was 13. He traveled too far and was lost for 2 weeks. He found his way back and died a few days later from a car. Seeing his blood stain the streets broke me. I've never had a pet since. I feel your pain!.

 

[Chronic]

I'm so sorry. My last dog had spinal cancer and I should have put him to sleep a week before I did because it got bad and he was in so much pain. I cried every day for months afterwards. Eventually I got another dog and we are best friends. Got her from a rescue and we're almost always together. I have a fear of abandonment and wish we could be together forever...she is now 11 and it scares me. I've lost so much the past 2 years and I fear losing her too. Anyway, I'm sorry you are going through this and I understand.