LinxLunar
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- Jan 9, 2025
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If you want to know the effect, just go to the "---".
Hi everyone. A year ago I decided to CTB with other people IRL. I talked a lot to them and they convinced me to try and seek professionnal help. I'm back here again so you can understand that it didn't work.
I wanted to share my story with SN and the effect I got.
So to give a little bit of context, I wanted to CTB early january, I didn't and decided to talk a psychiatrist. So I am now under medication to help me "fight" suicidal thought but it doesn't really work, even with 2 pills/day. I promised the people I was with to not CTB for 6 months but I was feeling really bad and wanted to SH in a way that wasn't really visible. At the same time I wanted to see what were the effect of SN were so I tried to take some.
--- I decided to take 1/3 of the lethal dose recommended. (I was ~100kg back then so you can know how much). I took 1 antiemetic 20mins before and 2 paracetamols. 15mins before. I drank everything. (I had a connected watch so I was looking at some informations.) In about 10mins, my bpm doubled, going from ~80 to 160. I was in bed for 1h and was feeling really nauseous. I wanted to vomit so I decided to stand up and search for a bucket. I vomited all night long, from ~midnight to 5am. My nails became blue (litterally dark blue) and my oxygen level was down to around 70% (normal value are above 95%).
However, after 2 days nothing was left. I was fully okay and had no problem afterward. Don't take this as medical advice. Some people died from 1g of SN so you shouldn't try if you don't want to CTB. Just know that if you don't succeed / become inconcious, it will just be a bad night but nothing long term (again, my immune system is pretty good so don't take this as medical advice or proof.
Hope this help some people, if you have any question don't hesitate to ask ! <3 (Sorry for my english I'm not native)
Hi everyone. A year ago I decided to CTB with other people IRL. I talked a lot to them and they convinced me to try and seek professionnal help. I'm back here again so you can understand that it didn't work.
I wanted to share my story with SN and the effect I got.
So to give a little bit of context, I wanted to CTB early january, I didn't and decided to talk a psychiatrist. So I am now under medication to help me "fight" suicidal thought but it doesn't really work, even with 2 pills/day. I promised the people I was with to not CTB for 6 months but I was feeling really bad and wanted to SH in a way that wasn't really visible. At the same time I wanted to see what were the effect of SN were so I tried to take some.
--- I decided to take 1/3 of the lethal dose recommended. (I was ~100kg back then so you can know how much). I took 1 antiemetic 20mins before and 2 paracetamols. 15mins before. I drank everything. (I had a connected watch so I was looking at some informations.) In about 10mins, my bpm doubled, going from ~80 to 160. I was in bed for 1h and was feeling really nauseous. I wanted to vomit so I decided to stand up and search for a bucket. I vomited all night long, from ~midnight to 5am. My nails became blue (litterally dark blue) and my oxygen level was down to around 70% (normal value are above 95%).
However, after 2 days nothing was left. I was fully okay and had no problem afterward. Don't take this as medical advice. Some people died from 1g of SN so you shouldn't try if you don't want to CTB. Just know that if you don't succeed / become inconcious, it will just be a bad night but nothing long term (again, my immune system is pretty good so don't take this as medical advice or proof.
Hope this help some people, if you have any question don't hesitate to ask ! <3 (Sorry for my english I'm not native)