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LinxLunar

LinxLunar

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Jan 9, 2025
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If you want to know the effect, just go to the "---".

Hi everyone. A year ago I decided to CTB with other people IRL. I talked a lot to them and they convinced me to try and seek professionnal help. I'm back here again so you can understand that it didn't work.
I wanted to share my story with SN and the effect I got.

So to give a little bit of context, I wanted to CTB early january, I didn't and decided to talk a psychiatrist. So I am now under medication to help me "fight" suicidal thought but it doesn't really work, even with 2 pills/day. I promised the people I was with to not CTB for 6 months but I was feeling really bad and wanted to SH in a way that wasn't really visible. At the same time I wanted to see what were the effect of SN were so I tried to take some.

--- I decided to take 1/3 of the lethal dose recommended. (I was ~100kg back then so you can know how much). I took 1 antiemetic 20mins before and 2 paracetamols. 15mins before. I drank everything. (I had a connected watch so I was looking at some informations.) In about 10mins, my bpm doubled, going from ~80 to 160. I was in bed for 1h and was feeling really nauseous. I wanted to vomit so I decided to stand up and search for a bucket. I vomited all night long, from ~midnight to 5am. My nails became blue (litterally dark blue) and my oxygen level was down to around 70% (normal value are above 95%).

However, after 2 days nothing was left. I was fully okay and had no problem afterward. Don't take this as medical advice. Some people died from 1g of SN so you shouldn't try if you don't want to CTB. Just know that if you don't succeed / become inconcious, it will just be a bad night but nothing long term (again, my immune system is pretty good so don't take this as medical advice or proof.

Hope this help some people, if you have any question don't hesitate to ask ! <3 (Sorry for my english I'm not native)
 
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death_bed221

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Besides feeling really nauseous, any other pain? Was it hard to breathe? Does it seem like a peaceful way to go?
 
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LinxLunar

LinxLunar

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Jan 9, 2025
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Besides feeling really nauseous, any other pain? Was it hard to breathe? Does it seem like a peaceful way to go?
So, I had no really other pain but yeah, it was pretty hard to breath and for all the time I couldn't really stand up without falling. But tbh It wasn't painful in any way. of course your body will react so it can't be painless. But I 100% recommend it and If I really decide to CTB, this is how I will leave
 
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Interesting account. what was source of sn? did you fast before taking?
 
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death_bed221

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Sep 23, 2024
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So, I had no really other pain but yeah, it was pretty hard to breath and for all the time I couldn't really stand up without falling. But tbh It wasn't painful in any way. of course your body will react so it can't be painless. But I 100% recommend it and If I really decide to CTB, this is how I will leave
Sorry for asking again but about the hard to breathe part. That is what worries me the most actually. Does it feel like u are being suffocated to death or its not that bad?
 
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SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
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if u dont mind answering what purity was your sn??
 
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LinxLunar

LinxLunar

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Jan 9, 2025
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Interesting account. what was source of sn? did you fast before taking?
I'm not completely sure, but I don't think I was fasting. I don't remember the source, but it's none of the actual one from what I red
Sorry for asking again but about the hard to breathe part. That is what worries me the most actually. Does it feel like u are being suffocated to death or its not that bad?
For me it wasn't that bad, it's like having a mass on your torso so you can't breath fully but it isn't like suffocating to death
if u dont mind answering what purity was your sn??
I tested it 3 different time. One in january before going to the place to CTB, one on the place to CTB (that I didn't do) and one before doing it (in march) and it was all 3 time 100%. So pure SN for sure.

hope this help <3
 
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SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
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I'm not completely sure, but I don't think I was fasting. I don't remember the source, but it's none of the actual one from what I red

For me it wasn't that bad, it's like having a mass on your torso so you can't breath fully but it isn't like suffocating to death

I tested it 3 different time. One in january before going to the place to CTB, one on the place to CTB (that I didn't do) and one before doing it (in march) and it was all 3 time 100%. So pure SN for sure.

hope this help <3
tysm!!
 
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