Story My experience with SN

[LinxLunar]

If you want to know the effect, just go to the "---".

Hi everyone. A year ago I decided to CTB with other people IRL. I talked a lot to them and they convinced me to try and seek professionnal help. I'm back here again so you can understand that it didn't work.
I wanted to share my story with SN and the effect I got.

So to give a little bit of context, I wanted to CTB early january, I didn't and decided to talk a psychiatrist. So I am now under medication to help me "fight" suicidal thought but it doesn't really work, even with 2 pills/day. I promised the people I was with to not CTB for 6 months but I was feeling really bad and wanted to SH in a way that wasn't really visible. At the same time I wanted to see what were the effect of SN were so I tried to take some.

--- I decided to take 1/3 of the lethal dose recommended. (I was ~100kg back then so you can know how much). I took 1 antiemetic 20mins before and 2 paracetamols. 15mins before. I drank everything. (I had a connected watch so I was looking at some informations.) In about 10mins, my bpm doubled, going from ~80 to 160. I was in bed for 1h and was feeling really nauseous. I wanted to vomit so I decided to stand up and search for a bucket. I vomited all night long, from ~midnight to 5am. My nails became blue (litterally dark blue) and my oxygen level was down to around 70% (normal value are above 95%).

However, after 2 days nothing was left. I was fully okay and had no problem afterward. Don't take this as medical advice. Some people died from 1g of SN so you shouldn't try if you don't want to CTB. Just know that if you don't succeed / become inconcious, it will just be a bad night but nothing long term (again, my immune system is pretty good so don't take this as medical advice or proof.

Hope this help some people, if you have any question don't hesitate to ask ! <3 (Sorry for my english I'm not native)

 

[death_bed221]

Besides feeling really nauseous, any other pain? Was it hard to breathe? Does it seem like a peaceful way to go?

 

[LinxLunar]

Besides feeling really nauseous, any other pain? Was it hard to breathe? Does it seem like a peaceful way to go?

So, I had no really other pain but yeah, it was pretty hard to breath and for all the time I couldn't really stand up without falling. But tbh It wasn't painful in any way. of course your body will react so it can't be painless. But I 100% recommend it and If I really decide to CTB, this is how I will leave

 

[depressedinsomniac]

Interesting account. what was source of sn? did you fast before taking?

 

[death_bed221]

So, I had no really other pain but yeah, it was pretty hard to breath and for all the time I couldn't really stand up without falling. But tbh It wasn't painful in any way. of course your body will react so it can't be painless. But I 100% recommend it and If I really decide to CTB, this is how I will leave

Sorry for asking again but about the hard to breathe part. That is what worries me the most actually. Does it feel like u are being suffocated to death or its not that bad?

 

[SNastablesalt]

if u dont mind answering what purity was your sn??

 

[LinxLunar]

Interesting account. what was source of sn? did you fast before taking?

I'm not completely sure, but I don't think I was fasting. I don't remember the source, but it's none of the actual one from what I red

Sorry for asking again but about the hard to breathe part. That is what worries me the most actually. Does it feel like u are being suffocated to death or its not that bad?

For me it wasn't that bad, it's like having a mass on your torso so you can't breath fully but it isn't like suffocating to death

if u dont mind answering what purity was your sn??

I tested it 3 different time. One in january before going to the place to CTB, one on the place to CTB (that I didn't do) and one before doing it (in march) and it was all 3 time 100%. So pure SN for sure.

hope this help <3

 

[SNastablesalt]

I'm not completely sure, but I don't think I was fasting. I don't remember the source, but it's none of the actual one from what I red

For me it wasn't that bad, it's like having a mass on your torso so you can't breath fully but it isn't like suffocating to death

I tested it 3 different time. One in january before going to the place to CTB, one on the place to CTB (that I didn't do) and one before doing it (in march) and it was all 3 time 100%. So pure SN for sure.

hope this help <3

tysm!!

 

[parasite_eve]

I'm not completely sure, but I don't think I was fasting. I don't remember the source, but it's none of the actual one from what I red

For me it wasn't that bad, it's like having a mass on your torso so you can't breath fully but it isn't like suffocating to death

I tested it 3 different time. One in january before going to the place to CTB, one on the place to CTB (that I didn't do) and one before doing it (in march) and it was all 3 time 100%. So pure SN for sure.

hope this help <3

Thank you for sharing your experience!

If I may ask: Would your hypothesis be you were okay because threw up most soon enough and didn't take a second cup?

 

[Peter Skellern]

To be honest that didn't sound overly great to me as a way to go.

 

[Forveleth]

To be honest that didn't sound overly great to me as a way to go.

You have to remember they took only 1/3 the lethal dose. Laying awake all night throwing up is not a normal part of an attempt with the full recommended amount of SN.

Do most people throw up? Yeah. It comes with the method. But most people are also unconscious in 15 minutes, at which point you are pretty much "done". Your body takes another 25 minutes to die, but you are not there for it. I have had violent food poisoning for 8 hours more than once in my life, 15 minutes of nausea knowing death (and relief) is on the other side is nothing.

 

[LinxLunar]

Thank you for sharing your experience!

If I may ask: Would your hypothesis be you were okay because threw up most soon enough and didn't take a second cup?

mmh I think I threw up most / all the SN. This may be the reason why I'm still here unfortunately. But yeah, if the SN isn't throw I think effect can be really different.

To be honest that didn't sound overly great to me as a way to go.

I mean, I understand your concern but is there a better way ? For me SN is still my way to go. If you take antiemetic, the good dose of SN, prepare a second drink in case anything happen, you are pretty much sure to go. My exemple wasn't a tentative to CTB but just a testing if we could say so. If my oxygen was just a little bit lower I would have passed out and died.

You have to remember they took only 1/3 the lethal dose. Laying awake all night throwing up is not a normal part of an attempt with the full recommended amount of SN.

Do most people throw up? Yeah. It comes with the method. But most people are also unconscious in 15 minutes, at which point you are pretty much "done". Your body takes another 25 minutes to die, but you are not there for it. I have had violent food poisoning for 8 hours more than once in my life, 15 minutes of nausea knowing death (and relief) is on the other side is nothing.

Exactly, 15min of nausea is so little of a "pain" to be finally free. After you pass out you feel nothing so there's no pain, nothing. Just peace and you never wake up.

 

[Peter Skellern]

mmh I think I threw up most / all the SN. This may be the reason why I'm still here unfortunately. But yeah, if the SN isn't throw I think effect can be really different.

I mean, I understand your concern but is there a better way ? For me SN is still my way to go. If you take antiemetic, the good dose of SN, prepare a second drink in case anything happen, you are pretty much sure to go. My exemple wasn't a tentative to CTB but just a testing if we could say so. If my oxygen was just a little bit lower I would have passed out and died.

Exactly, 15min of nausea is so little of a "pain" to be finally free. After you pass out you feel nothing so there's no pain, nothing. Just peace and you never wake up.

In terms of a better way, a huge OD of a synthetic opiod? Knock you straight out to sleep and job done. No 15 mins of anything.

 

[BlueberrySylv]

ouchies wish i had read this slightly sooner cause i had literally similar experince.
worst is i got scared and told my family so i went in hospital.
THAT WAS THE WORST THAT HOSPITAL.
but now im home and all so yeah!

mine was just 0.5g of sn though. and yeah my heart was like around...120-150 while i could feel it beating in my chest. scary.
and lightheadedness and so on and so forth

 

[Peter Skellern]

I've looked at Amitriptyline thats even worse. That can take 48 hours. Who wants to sit around 48hrs!?

 

[LinxLunar]

In terms of a better way, a huge OD of a synthetic opiod? Knock you straight out to sleep and job done. No 15 mins of anything.

I don't know a lot about OD of synthetic opiod. For me SN is the most accessible and the easiest to do.

ouchies wish i had read this slightly sooner cause i had literally similar experince.
worst is i got scared and told my family so i went in hospital.
THAT WAS THE WORST THAT HOSPITAL.
but now im home and all so yeah!

mine was just 0.5g of sn though. and yeah my heart was like around...120-150 while i could feel it beating in my chest. scary.
and lightheadedness and so on and so forth

Yeah, I was with roommate at that time, I just told them I was sick, it was during the night. They called a SOS number but they took 4 hours to come. I was just there with them, being a burden for them, failing their night. Just for the med to come, do a blood test and leave, no medication nothing. I was scared they would find out the SN in my blood but they came so late that they found nothing.

I've looked at Amitriptyline thats even worse. That can take 48 hours. Who wants to sit around 48hrs!?

48hrs is so much, I could never

 

[Peter Skellern]

I don't know a lot about OD of synthetic opiod. For me SN is the most accessible and the easiest to do.

Yeah, I was with roommate at that time, I just told them I was sick, it was during the night. They called a SOS number but they took 4 hours to come. I was just there with them, being a burden for them, failing their night. Just for the med to come, do a blood test and leave, no medication nothing. I was scared they would find out the SN in my blood but they came so late that they found nothing.

48hrs is so much, I could never

Its an age isn't it? And a person might easily loose their nerve and seek treatment. Immediate is far preferable.

 

[LinxLunar]

Its an age isn't it? And a person might easily loose their nerve and seek treatment. Immediate is far preferable.

Yeah, this is just dumb

 

[Peter Skellern]

Yeah, this is just dumb

I dont even fancy15 mins. Hence my looking at a od of opioids. I know ODs aren't popular on here but enough will probably do the job immediately and peacefully.

 

[LinxLunar]

I dont even fancy15 mins. Hence my looking at a od of opioids. I know ODs aren't popular on here but enough will probably do the job immediately and peacefully.

I Hope it does, be sure to check if people have tried it before. You really don't want to be in a worst state, alive in a hospital..

 

[Peter Skellern]

I Hope it does, be sure to check if people have tried it before. You really don't want to be in a worst state, alive in a hospital..

No I agree. However, a considerable dose should be sufficient. Frankly, addicts OD all the time and I've zero tolerance. How hard can it be? Now sourcing the stuff when you've no experience of doing that. That might be hard.

 

[LinxLunar]

I hope you find your way out and find hapiness up there Richard. <3

 

[death_bed221]

No I agree. However, a considerable dose should be sufficient. Frankly, addicts OD all the time and I've zero tolerance. How hard can it be? Now sourcing the stuff when you've no experience of doing that. That might be hard.

U probably wont die from it. Much more people get fucked up for life instead of dying. Its just dying is a more interesting story for people so u hear that

 

[Peter Skellern]

U probably wont die from it. Much more people get fucked up for life instead of dying. Its just dying is a more interesting story for people so u hear that

Why? I've no tolerence whatsover. A huge dose should do it shouldnt it.

 

[death_bed221]

Why? I've no tolerence whatsover. A huge dose should do it shouldnt it.

If u can get pure fentanyl maybe yea. Problem is no one sells that shit. They just cut it. Its easier to find N. But yea N and fentanyl is probably much more peaceful than SN. The problem with opioids is the same thing can happen as sn. U will puke it out. Look at heroin overdoses. The body will fight it. And from the research I have done, opioid overdose can leave u fucked up for life. I only saw 1 case of sn having long term damage.

 

[divinemistress36]

How was the anxiety during it?

 

[Valhala]

I dont even fancy15 mins. Hence my looking at a od of opioids. I know ODs aren't popular on here but enough will probably do the job immediately and peacefully.

You take enough benzo crushed in water and then there is no possible panic, anxiety or pain for those 15 minutes.

 

[danny10]

If I may ask, why did you only take 1/3 of the lethal dose? Why not the full recommended dose?

 

[legoshi]

So if some one was to attempt and fail. They would need to set aside 2 days in order to bounce back? Also do you throw up easily? Like when you get sick? And based off your weight you indicated, I'm assuming you took around 8 grams?

 

[Alitaaqua6781]

If u can get pure fentanyl maybe yea. Problem is no one sells that shit. They just cut it. Its easier to find N. But yea N and fentanyl is probably much more peaceful than SN. The problem with opioids is the same thing can happen as sn. U will puke it out. Look at heroin overdoses. The body will fight it. And from the research I have done, opioid overdose can leave u fucked up for life. I only saw 1 case of sn having long term damage.

I was thinking that about fentanyl. I was looking at travelling to South America and read a lot of Mexicans pharmacy's drugs are fentanyl laced figured that shouldn't be hard to get there?