• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

lastbite

lastbite

New Member
Apr 14, 2019
3
Hello friends.

I've lurked here for some time, gathering info about different methods and techniques, reading all of your stories and tales of suffering, and I've found this place to be a true resource and a place of comfort.

I want to thank all of you--though we haven't met personally--for sharing yourselves with the world. It's because of you that I find a sort of relief in knowing I'm at least not alone in this struggle. You are all beautiful people, and I you find the peace you deserve in whatever way it comes.

Peace is all I'm after at this point. I have a range of psychological conditions that have taken most of the joy and energy out of me. I'm just tired of fighting, tired of waking up in the morning and wishing I could fall back asleep forever. I'm sure you all know that feeling too well.

I really should have been dead as of three hours ago. I experimented with partial hanging for a few days, practicing every night until I found the right position and such. This morning I decided it was time. It took half an hour of fighting my SI to finally do it, but I finally dropped to my knees and passed out. The next thing I knew I was convulsing on the floor, limbs paralyzed and flailing. The rope I configured out of a sock had snapped, despite having tested it for durability several times.

I got up and made some coffee. It's comical how easy it is to die, and how difficult it can be at the same time.

My plan now is to buy a tent, head for the nearest campgrounds, and dehydrate myself to death out in nature. I'll try to enjoy my last few days in a peaceful setting, as much as possible, though I realize the discomfort will be intense.

VSED is not recommended on this board, I'm aware. It just seems like an assured death to me. Advice and criticism is all welcome.

You're made of stardust, don't forget it. Thank you for reading.
 
  • Like
Reactions: vaulthunter, phoenixx, Superfluous and 13 others
H

headinghome

Experienced
Apr 11, 2019
205
Hello friends.

I've lurked here for some time, gathering info about different methods and techniques, reading all of your stories and tales of suffering, and I've found this place to be a true resource and a place of comfort.

I want to thank all of you--though we haven't met personally--for sharing yourselves with the world. It's because of you that I find a sort of relief in knowing I'm at least not alone in this struggle. You are all beautiful people, and I you find the peace you deserve in whatever way it comes.

Peace is all I'm after at this point. I have a range of psychological conditions that have taken most of the joy and energy out of me. I'm just tired of fighting, tired of waking up in the morning and wishing I could fall back asleep forever. I'm sure you all know that feeling too well.

I really should have been dead as of three hours ago. I experimented with partial hanging for a few days, practicing every night until I found the right position and such. This morning I decided it was time. It took half an hour of fighting my SI to finally do it, but I finally dropped to my knees and passed out. The next thing I knew I was convulsing on the floor, limbs paralyzed and flailing. The rope I configured out of a sock had snapped, despite having tested it for durability several times.

I got up and made some coffee. It's comical how easy it is to die, and how difficult it can be at the same time.

My plan now is to buy a tent, head for the nearest campgrounds, and dehydrate myself to death out in nature. I'll try to enjoy my last few days in a peaceful setting, as much as possible, though I realize the discomfort will be intense.

VSED is not recommended on this board, I'm aware. It just seems like an assured death to me. Advice and criticism is all welcome.

You're made of stardust, don't forget it. Thank you for reading.
sorry for all your/our suffering
I have thought of using the VSED
method I think it would take too long though although I don't really have options at this point… I know this site is helpful to many but for me it's almost more hopeless because I don't really see it being an avenue for a true suicide for me
 
  • Like
Reactions: lastbite
efffervescence

efffervescence

Member
Dec 13, 2018
71
Good luck <3
 
  • Like
Reactions: Redrock and lastbite
lastbite

lastbite

New Member
Apr 14, 2019
3
sorry for all your/our suffering
I have thought of using the VSED
method I think it would take too long though although I don't really have options at this point… I know this site is helpful to many but for me it's almost more hopeless because I don't really see it being an avenue for a true suicide for me

My heart goes out to you. The sodium nitrite method seems like a good option, if you have the time to wait for shipping and know where to get the antiemetics.

VSED would be slow and painful without a doubt. It's the part where you're near the end and you just fall asleep and don't wake up again that appeals to me.
How long till you leave?

I'm planning on tomorrow morning.

Good luck <3

Thank you kindly.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: Superfluous
S

Strumgewehr

Experienced
Jun 7, 2018
271
Sorry to hear you failed. I don't think dehydration is a very good method but ATEOFTD it all your choice.
 
  • Like
Reactions: lastbite and Redrock
Macc Lad

Macc Lad

Specialist
Jan 22, 2019
300
Hello friends.

I've lurked here for some time, gathering info about different methods and techniques, reading all of your stories and tales of suffering, and I've found this place to be a true resource and a place of comfort.

I want to thank all of you--though we haven't met personally--for sharing yourselves with the world. It's because of you that I find a sort of relief in knowing I'm at least not alone in this struggle. You are all beautiful people, and I you find the peace you deserve in whatever way it comes.

Peace is all I'm after at this point. I have a range of psychological conditions that have taken most of the joy and energy out of me. I'm just tired of fighting, tired of waking up in the morning and wishing I could fall back asleep forever. I'm sure you all know that feeling too well.

I really should have been dead as of three hours ago. I experimented with partial hanging for a few days, practicing every night until I found the right position and such. This morning I decided it was time. It took half an hour of fighting my SI to finally do it, but I finally dropped to my knees and passed out. The next thing I knew I was convulsing on the floor, limbs paralyzed and flailing. The rope I configured out of a sock had snapped, despite having tested it for durability several times.

I got up and made some coffee. It's comical how easy it is to die, and how difficult it can be at the same time.

My plan now is to buy a tent, head for the nearest campgrounds, and dehydrate myself to death out in nature. I'll try to enjoy my last few days in a peaceful setting, as much as possible, though I realize the discomfort will be intense.

VSED is not recommended on this board, I'm aware. It just seems like an assured death to me. Advice and criticism is all welcome.

You're made of stardust, don't forget it. Thank you for reading.

Do you lurk often?
 
  • Yay!
Reactions: martha
H

headinghome

Experienced
Apr 11, 2019
205
Do you lurk often?
"How easy it is to die...." if only...if this was so there wouldn't be a website we would all just go...nothing else said....
 
  • Like
Reactions: lastbite, Jolene40 and adam
JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Frequently. Sometimes in a trench coat, if I'm feeling frisky.

I like your style. Sorry your attempt didn't work out. Wish you well in the future.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Superfluous

Similar threads

absolute_n0thing
Replies
23
Views
767
Suicide Discussion
Forveleth
F
S
Replies
13
Views
708
Suicide Discussion
sanction
sanction
MourningFlower
Replies
4
Views
255
Suicide Discussion
MourningFlower
MourningFlower
Darkover
Replies
12
Views
370
Suicide Discussion
wham311
W
Manic Panic
Replies
7
Views
393
Suicide Discussion
secretghost
secretghost