Story My fucked up life

[TiGz]

hi guys. I don't know who else to speak to, cuz so far ive fucked up everywhere i go... like literally... i fell in love with someone im not supposed to and they feel the same about me (its not someone whos married its just someone ppl like me shouldn't fall in love with and them falling in love with me) This person's entire workplace hates them now becuz of this. Obviously they hate me too. But i dont have to go there anymore, but they have to be there every day... ppl have said mean things and send disgusting sexual items and letters anonymously to them. They always talk about them and me... Im not in a relationship with this person, but yet those bitches talk... this person loved their job and it was like an escape from their own problems, but now, cuz of this... i have a friend who also works there. Through her we use to communicate. But now those bitches are even targeting my friend... so now my friend is an emotional mess as well. Then back at home, i find it hard to become independent financially, cuz of my depression and the person supporting me is getting fed up... So i have caused my friend emotional distress, the person i love lost her place of escape cuz of me and everyone is irritated and fed up with me... I need to kill myself and things will get better for everyone over time... im such a piece of shit!! I hope SN kills me with no chance of survival!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be a hell. People can be cruel and it doesn't sound as if it is your fault. I hope you find relief from your situation.

 

[WornOutLife]

I've been a piece of sh*t more than once but we can always learn from our mistakes so as to, for example, not hurt people again.

Hope you can feel better soon.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[Bullit]

I'm a bit confused. Do you still have a relationship with the person you love? If so,well,that's a start. You may have what so many want!
Is this racial thing,or religious? I am quite curious.
I really hope you can make it in life.

 

[TiGz]

No. Its a job description thing and she isn't talking to me anymore. I don't think she's angry, but maybe the whole thing wouldn't be healthy for both of us, considering how we met... This whole thing is one of those "ur kidding right?" stories. But i really her but its her choice and jm not gonna pressure her into anything

I'm a bit confused. Do you still have a relationship with the person you love? If so,well,that's a start. You may have what so many want!
Is this racial thing,or religious? I am quite curious.
I really hope you can make it in life

This is actually kind of crazy considering how fucked up my life is... This woman knows everything about, she basically knows more about me than i know about (the shit i remember about myself and what i did, makes me cringe...) But yet she accepted me and loved me back... i really miss her a lot... But life is life - nothing ever works out for me...