I am planning to end it in the next couple of days but honestly, finding a time where I'm alone is not easy. The schedule is against me.
I have been on r/SanctionedSuicide and r/TrueSanctionedSuicide and now, r/TimeToGo(TTG) for around 3 months and a half now. I made some friends there and those subs did help me. I do have a problem with the mods and their abuse of power on TTG. But overall it has helped me.
I have been on this forum for only around a week. It has grown a lot in a week. (I did help a bit
)
My method has been ligature strangulation via Ratchet strap. I have failed around 10 times with that method. My only speculation is that my neck is too chubby for it to work perfectly. I also couldn't stand the feeling of life draining away as I'm waiting to pass out. But from each attempt I have learned something.
My new and current method is exit bag by helium. I have made other posts which have information and resources on this method so I won't go into that. I also have alcohol which helps with the survival instinct IMMENSELY. I will make some cocktails so it goes down easier.
The only problem right now is finding the time to do it. A time when I'm alone and have enough time to sleep, reflect on my method and have time to meditate. I would need 2 days for this. But oh well...I'll see. However I will not be careless and be discovered and intensify this hell of a joke of a life.
One lesson I've learned is to always be prepared and seize the opportunity. So I am. I am prepared and am looking for the opportunity now. Many times I have failed because of being unprepared and procrastinating. Don't do what I did. Don't wait too long. Some people wait 50 years...luckily I've learned from them.
I made this post now because I wanted to get it out of the way so I can focus fully on doing this without distractions. I will make a last comment on the day I will do it. If this is the last activity from me know I successfuly died. I have always updated people and never been gone for more than a few days so anything past two weeks means that I am gone.
Wish you all peace
I have been on r/SanctionedSuicide and r/TrueSanctionedSuicide and now, r/TimeToGo(TTG) for around 3 months and a half now. I made some friends there and those subs did help me. I do have a problem with the mods and their abuse of power on TTG. But overall it has helped me.
I have been on this forum for only around a week. It has grown a lot in a week. (I did help a bit
)My method has been ligature strangulation via Ratchet strap. I have failed around 10 times with that method. My only speculation is that my neck is too chubby for it to work perfectly. I also couldn't stand the feeling of life draining away as I'm waiting to pass out. But from each attempt I have learned something.
My new and current method is exit bag by helium. I have made other posts which have information and resources on this method so I won't go into that. I also have alcohol which helps with the survival instinct IMMENSELY. I will make some cocktails so it goes down easier.
The only problem right now is finding the time to do it. A time when I'm alone and have enough time to sleep, reflect on my method and have time to meditate. I would need 2 days for this. But oh well...I'll see. However I will not be careless and be discovered and intensify this hell of a joke of a life.
One lesson I've learned is to always be prepared and seize the opportunity. So I am. I am prepared and am looking for the opportunity now. Many times I have failed because of being unprepared and procrastinating. Don't do what I did. Don't wait too long. Some people wait 50 years...luckily I've learned from them.
I made this post now because I wanted to get it out of the way so I can focus fully on doing this without distractions. I will make a last comment on the day I will do it. If this is the last activity from me know I successfuly died. I have always updated people and never been gone for more than a few days so anything past two weeks means that I am gone.
Wish you all peace
