iLikeFrogs
Most likely dissociating
- May 5, 2023
- 98
I just don't know what to do. I tried to stay a bit longer alive since I don't have a good method yet and am kinda scared to ctb again but things are going to shit again. My granddad is bedbound and has seizures every day at least once a day. Euthanasia is illegal in my country and even though I know I wouldn't get qualified to get euthanized, my granddad is just suffering. He has been depressed for a long time and now he can't even communicate how and why he feels. I really want the best for him but I know it's sufffering for no reason and is just stuffed with psych meds that we don't even know if they work. It's a lot for me and and I can't imagine how he feels, it's crushing me and makes me want to kms more but I know I can't. I'm so lost and confused I'm sorry if it's incoherent.