Discussion My Last Year on Earth

[Lost in a Dream]

I decided that since I wasn't able to end my life this year like I wanted, I'm going to give myself a whole year from now to party and have some fun. I'm tired of being miserable all the time, and I'd like to prove to the world that a person can still live a good, happy life and want to die. It probably makes no sense why I would want that under those conditions, but the thing is, I want to be in control when I die because I don't want to work for decades or get old. I don't want to die from cancer or a car accident, I want to do it on my own terms.

If I make my attempt next year and survive, or if someone tries to prevent me, then I can just BS my way through the hospital and therapy long enough to try again. This is why I believe more than anything that people should have the right to end their life. I would prefer it be peaceful, but since euthanasia isn't available, then hanging will have to do. I don't think I'm going to try buying SN again since my dad found mine the last time I was at the hospital, so I don't have access to it anymore.

I don't think there's anything wrong with trying to exit like this, since it's probably easier to plan when I'm not feeling desperate to do it the whole time. I've been miserable long enough anyway, so I might as well make the most of the time I have left. Is anyone else thinking about trying this maybe? I get that most people on this forum are suffering horribly and that is why they want to die, but it doesn't always have to go that way.

 

[SVEN]

I truly hope you enjoy your year, no matter what you decide at the end of it.

 

[sevennn]

i made the same plans. but misery is hard to snap out of

 

[Lost in a Dream]

i made the same plans. but misery is hard to snap out of

It is, especially after being miserable for years. I still hate this reality but I'm hoping this will work out for me. Hope your plans work out well for you too.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It's been a couple months since I last posted here, but I still think I've got my heart set on next October. I'm actually kinda glad I got to exist, even though I've been through a lot. I just wish I could get everyone who cares about me to understand that I want the freedom to exit any time I choose. Maybe if I'd had that guarantee from the very start, I wouldn't have ever felt trapped.