My life is on pause right now

[couldntthinkofaname]

terrible feeling especially when everyone else is making progress in their lifes

i really need to ctb soon. the earlier the better

 

[worldexploder]

I hear ya. My life at 35 is so radically different from the lives of people I grew up with I wouldn't be able to relate to them. I'd seem like an alien and visa versa.

No car, never had a job, on SSI (and yes people will judge you for that unfortunately), alcoholic, mentally ill, no kids (which I see as a positive), and a failed marriage.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

I hear ya. My life at 35 is so radically different from the lives of people I grew up with I wouldn't be able to relate to them. I'd seem like an alien and visa versa.

No car, never had a job, on SSI (and yes people will judge you for that unfortunately), alcoholic, mentally ill, no kids (which I see as a positive), and a failed marriage.

there is no scenario where i will make it to 35

 

[worldexploder]

there is no scenario where i will make it to 35

I should have CTB 12 years ago when I first started to actively think about methods. I decided to give life one more chance. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I'll ether go by Dignitas or find some other way.

I have made a rational decision to terminate myself within 6 months. I'll be looking for the easiest ways out during this time.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

I should have CTB 12 years ago when I first started to actively think about methods. I decided to give life one more chance. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I'll ether go by Dignitas or find some other way.

I have made a rational decision to terminate myself within 6 months. I'll be looking for the easiest ways out during this time.

i really hope i find the strength to end it before 30

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I'm at a point where I'm making no effort to progress. Kind of just doing the same things over and over. Going to work but making minimal effort. Life is so tiring

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Same here I have never been as poor as I have been this month I dropped out of school in September and is now on welfare even though I haven´t gotten any money from the government this month only some money from my parents. And everyone around me has everything going for them while I am going no where.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

Same here I have never been as poor as I have been this month I dropped out of school in September and is now on welfare even though I haven´t gotten any money from the government this month only some money from my parents. And everyone around me has everything going for them while I am going no where.

this is such a bad feeling. your life goes to shit and everyone else who used to be on your level or even below that is suceeding. i got to be honest here: i cant be happy them. in fact their sucess combined with my situation was the reason i cut contact with most of my former friends

 

[Schopenhauer]

I don't care about other people, really. I envy their happiness sometimes, but I'm not angry. I could never be like them. For me to be happy, I'd have to be someone else. Since that's neither possible, nor desirable, ctb is the only choice I have.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

this is such a bad feeling. your life goes to shit and everyone else who used to be on your level or even below that is suceeding. i got to be honest here: i cant be happy them. in fact their sucess combined with my situation was the reason i cut contact with most of my former friends

That is why being a teenager was way better, even though as a teenager we have all of these hormones making us confused and feel everything so much more including the depression I had but we were equals everyone our age went to school and if people had jobs it would be crappy low status jobs like working at Mc Donalds, cashier etc. or a dishwasher (like I did) now previous friends and people we knew are above us in life and it fucking sucks.

 

[Roph]

I hear ya. The sooner I ctb, the sooner my problems end.