Webnext
22M Student
- Mar 2, 2024
- 27
Hear me out, I'm not saying my mom is abusive or gets mad at me all the time, but it's becoming frequent now. She is a therapist herself and works from home and I live with her still since I'm currently in community college for now. It gets complicated if I have to tell her something that she needs to know about like important information to take in for the future, and she forgets about it like the next day and thinks whatever I said to her before was like a "whatever" conservation. One time, she noticed me coming back home early from college and it was a disaster. Before I left for school, I might get a notice from my professor some days saying class is canceled or it will be a shorter class time than when the class is over just for various reasons. So when I came home early, she says why I'm home sooner than later, and I told her that my class was over early today.
She then goes on asking me why and how and keeps asking more questions that is too far than it needs to be like figuring out how long it takes me to drive back home from college and irrelevant unnecessary information because she thinks I'm not telling the truth. And when I do try to correct her error, she just has to scream out loud and tells me to shut the fuck up and doesn't want to hear me listen anymore. She then texts me saying she feels sorry for me because she thinks I won't stop talking to her nonstop when she is the one who asks me a question and I'm answering her. I never skip my classes for no reason except if I'm sick or an excused absence and whenever I try to tell her that I wasn't skipping, she doesn't listen and keeps on saying that I did. Other times whenever she has to look over my grades for my classes and sees something she's confused about because she doesn't understand the system, I explain it to her and she does it again to where she doesn't listen and starts telling me to shut up constantly.
Another example is back in our old house, one time we had to get a home alarm technician who was coming over to install new equipment since we had an alarm system and needed some equipment required from the HOA. And since I only knew what the code was to unlock our alarm control panel and access it to change the settings and be able to work on it, I gave my mom the code the night before the technician was coming and she was on her phone the whole time not paying attention that much to me when I was telling her about it and how important it was that you need to show this to the technician, but she did put it down onto her notes app on her phone anyway so I hoped she will give it to the technician because I knew without that code, the technician wouldn't be able to do the job. The next day when the technician was coming, I wasn't going to be there on that day so that is why I relied on my mom to give him the code and so when I came back home from school after he was gone, and I told her how did it go and asked if she gave him the code like I told her to, and it was exactly what I didn't want to hear but I knew it would happen.
When the technician couldn't access the control panel and asked my mom if she knew what the code was, she told me how she struggling to find that code on her phone for a long time because she forgot it was on her notes app on her phone despite me telling her that it was important she did it the night before and the alarm technician wasn't happy about it, and was going to leave and come back for another day until she did found it at the last minute and was relieved about it thank god... But that was a clear indicator that she didn't even care or take it seriously when I told her the code and how she needed to show it to him because if she did care enough and took it seriously when I first gave her the code, she would be able to show it to the technician right away or know that it was in your notes the moment the technician said he needed it with no delay.
I know this is going to sound horrifying but every time I hear her scream whenever I try to correct her mistake about me like skipping school, I see her in my head me pointing a gun at her to make her listen and take me seriously. I know that sounds horrifying but it's really making me angry and distressed because I had enough of her and doing something like that will teach her a lesson which will let out my anger because that is how bad it is for me. She hates guns and weapons in general and will always hate them. But, I'm too nice to do that and I'll never get a weapon anyway because of her. I know if she doesn't listen or take my conservations seriously, the next time something happens that I told her about before, she will get all confused about it the next day and tell me that I never told her that when I did multiple times.
She then goes on asking me why and how and keeps asking more questions that is too far than it needs to be like figuring out how long it takes me to drive back home from college and irrelevant unnecessary information because she thinks I'm not telling the truth. And when I do try to correct her error, she just has to scream out loud and tells me to shut the fuck up and doesn't want to hear me listen anymore. She then texts me saying she feels sorry for me because she thinks I won't stop talking to her nonstop when she is the one who asks me a question and I'm answering her. I never skip my classes for no reason except if I'm sick or an excused absence and whenever I try to tell her that I wasn't skipping, she doesn't listen and keeps on saying that I did. Other times whenever she has to look over my grades for my classes and sees something she's confused about because she doesn't understand the system, I explain it to her and she does it again to where she doesn't listen and starts telling me to shut up constantly.
Another example is back in our old house, one time we had to get a home alarm technician who was coming over to install new equipment since we had an alarm system and needed some equipment required from the HOA. And since I only knew what the code was to unlock our alarm control panel and access it to change the settings and be able to work on it, I gave my mom the code the night before the technician was coming and she was on her phone the whole time not paying attention that much to me when I was telling her about it and how important it was that you need to show this to the technician, but she did put it down onto her notes app on her phone anyway so I hoped she will give it to the technician because I knew without that code, the technician wouldn't be able to do the job. The next day when the technician was coming, I wasn't going to be there on that day so that is why I relied on my mom to give him the code and so when I came back home from school after he was gone, and I told her how did it go and asked if she gave him the code like I told her to, and it was exactly what I didn't want to hear but I knew it would happen.
When the technician couldn't access the control panel and asked my mom if she knew what the code was, she told me how she struggling to find that code on her phone for a long time because she forgot it was on her notes app on her phone despite me telling her that it was important she did it the night before and the alarm technician wasn't happy about it, and was going to leave and come back for another day until she did found it at the last minute and was relieved about it thank god... But that was a clear indicator that she didn't even care or take it seriously when I told her the code and how she needed to show it to him because if she did care enough and took it seriously when I first gave her the code, she would be able to show it to the technician right away or know that it was in your notes the moment the technician said he needed it with no delay.
I know this is going to sound horrifying but every time I hear her scream whenever I try to correct her mistake about me like skipping school, I see her in my head me pointing a gun at her to make her listen and take me seriously. I know that sounds horrifying but it's really making me angry and distressed because I had enough of her and doing something like that will teach her a lesson which will let out my anger because that is how bad it is for me. She hates guns and weapons in general and will always hate them. But, I'm too nice to do that and I'll never get a weapon anyway because of her. I know if she doesn't listen or take my conservations seriously, the next time something happens that I told her about before, she will get all confused about it the next day and tell me that I never told her that when I did multiple times.
