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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Follow your heart, only ctb if you know it's time
Aug 10, 2021
1,460
My name is ocd. I might seem harmless at first, I mean what's a minor compulsion now or then? But over time my grip on you will grow, before you know it you're completely under my control! I'll flash thoughts of disaster and horrible anxieties into your mind every single day. I'll make sure to let you know what horrible things will or could happen, but don't worry! I'll give you plenty tasks you can do to undo them, and you'll better make sure to do them, or else I'll make sure the worst will happen! Some days I'll be nice to you and only give you a few things to do, other days I'll torture you to no end with endless tasks and intrusive thoughts, and I will never let you rest. I'm here to make your life miserable, and you know that all too well! But you can't escape me because you depend on me. I'm the only one that can keep your anxiety under control. Only I can prevent disaster from strucking, and only if you do what I tell you to do. Without me you're never going to survive. Without me, you're nothing! I'm like a toxic relationship you can never get out of.
My name is ocd, and I'm here to make your life miserable!
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I'm not proffessionally diagnosed, but I'm almost certain I have ocd at this point so I wrote this as a vent. It's purely based on my own experiences. If there happens to be anyone who is actually diagnosed with ocd who sees this lmk if this is acurate to what ocd is actually like or not, and be honest with me please! Either way I enjoyed writing this and I'd love to know what you think so pls give me feedback if you'd like :)

Lmk if you want to see more of my writings in the future :D
 
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Iris Blue

Iris Blue

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Oct 23, 2023
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I was diagnosed with ocd a while back and I really do like what you typed out! I'm sure it may be different for everyone but what you put down definitely goes much deeper and gives more understanding into what ocd can be like. I would love more writings in the future you're really good at it with the almost first person perspective!
 
Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Sep 9, 2018
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OCD is oftentimes an offshoot of an anxiety disorder. So depending on your tolerance for meds, it might be an idea to consider them. If you can effectively reduce your general anxiety chemically, you will likely find your OCD greatly reduced too.

I've spoken to people who poo poo all meds because they don't respond well to anything they've tried, and that's fair enough. But the right SSRI can really help, if you're not opposed.
 
Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Follow your heart, only ctb if you know it's time
Aug 10, 2021
1,460
I was diagnosed with ocd a while back and I really do like what you typed out! I'm sure it may be different for everyone but what you put down definitely goes much deeper and gives more understanding into what ocd can be like. I would love more writings in the future you're really good at it with the almost first person perspective!
Thank you for the feedback, it's much appreciated! Writing has been a hobby of mine since my teens. It's a way for me to express myself, but I also enjoy it. Tysm <3
OCD is oftentimes an offshoot of an anxiety disorder. So depending on your tolerance for meds, it might be an idea to consider them. If you can effectively reduce your general anxiety chemically, you will likely find your OCD greatly reduced too.

I've spoken to people who poo poo all meds because they don't respond well to anything they've tried, and that's fair enough. But the right SSRI can really help, if you're not opposed.
I wish, but my psychiatrist refuses me any kinds of meds. I'm not opposing them at all, I want them more than anything bc my anxiety drives me nuts! Fortunately I'm getting a new one soon, but it's taking ages! >_<
 
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Iris Blue

Iris Blue

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Oct 23, 2023
226
I wish, but my psychiatrist refuses me any kinds of meds. I'm not opposing them at all, I want them more than anything bc my anxiety drives me nuts! Fortunately I'm getting a new one soon, but it's taking ages! >_<
I'm currently on something called NAC I believe that's the name. I don't think a prescription is needed but it is supposedly used to help with OCD. I've been on it for a while so I'm not sure if it's working or how much.
 
wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
555
I have OCD too. It's so horrible. I'm so sorry you're all suffering with it. :( </3
 
Arachno

Arachno

oh no :(
Apr 10, 2023
251
You described my OCD really well, I have pretty bad OCD and I gotta say the shitty thoughts it keeps giving me can get really horrible and hard to handle, I hate that my brain keeps tormenting me with those nonsensical threats just so I can do something. It sucks.
 
gingermacie

gingermacie

head in the clouds
Apr 5, 2024
78
I have dermatillomania, a symptom of OCD. For years I would go into a trance when picking. I started maiming myself when I was 10, before I could possibly grasp the consequences. 17 years later and my skin is an unsalvageable. Every. Single. Piece of media out there valorizes perfect skin and I know I'll always have the opposite. Fuck OCD.
 
hail

hail

perish slowly
Jan 27, 2024
47
even on an anonymous forum im still extremely hesitant to disclose this but ocd has royally fucked up my life for years, i've went through so many different themes and obsessions and i genuinely cannot comprehend living without them, if i woke up and they just ceased to exist i would feel like a newborn baby experiencing the world for the first time

ocd isn't apart of my life, ocd is my life. it's all i know
 

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